dieting

Light Carb Update #3

I am happy that it is starting to be berry season because berries, especially strawberries (my favorites), are lower in carbs. I’ve been struggling to get lower than 100grams of carbs a day in my diet. I hover between 100-130 on my “low carb days”, which doesn’t really feel low carb if you ask me. BUT I am still not eating bread, rice, potatoes or pasta sooo….in that aspect I’m doing well.

I’ve done some reading and it seems like a true low-carb diet, like Atkins, is somewhere around 20 grams of carbs a day. That sounds INSANE to me, and definitely not something you can keep doing long term.

Progress

The blip last week fixed itself this week! I’m down to 169! Woot Woot! Happy to be out of the 170’s finally. It was hard to break that threshold when I was yo-yo-ing up and down the same 5 pounds.

So far in the last month, or so, I’ve lost 6 pounds. I’m pretty happy with that!

Challenges

Last week Michael and I had a date night to see Joe Rogan’s stand up here in Portland.

We went out to dinner at Reverend’s BBQ and I was able to stay on my diet for the most part! I REALLY wanted the mac n’ cheese or hushpuppies but I ordered smart. We shared some deviled eggs:

And I got brisket with the collard greens. (So delicious!)

My carbs came from the BBQ sauce and the wine:

Despite that, I was able to stay around 100g of carbs total for the day of my eats. I’m happy that even eating out at a restaurant I was able to make good choices.

Friday or Saturday nights are usually the day I choose for my “cheat meal” but this Friday I stayed on track and the “cheat” was having some wine with dinner:

I had a salad with blackened salmon and cottage cheese.

Last week we tried cauliflower pizza for the first time. It was pretty good, but not quite right. Michael wanted to experiment and try again. So the day before he made the riced cauliflower even finer and then cooked it and tried to dry it a little more overnight. It didn’t really work so we ended up having homemade pizza.

It was an unexpected carb “cheat” meal that I was a little disappointed to have (because I was having some momentum and wanted to keep that going a few more days before having a cheat meal) but in the end it turned out to probably be a good idea. Going too long in “denial” phase can lead to binges.

The pizza was sooo good!

New This Week

Saturday for breakfast I tried having my breakfast burrito in a low-carb wrap:

Each wrap is 70 calories, 10g of carbs, 4g of fiber, 5g of protein. Good numbers if you ask me. So how did it taste? Not great…not as good as a flour or corn tortilla. I was kind of bummed out by that because I had high hopes! Especially considering the usual flour tortilla we use is 26 grams of carbs. BOO!

I think the Flat-Out wraps are also pretty low in carbs. I might check those out next week.

Getting Serious

I loved this article so much. If you have the time, give it a read: How to Feel Better About Not Being as Good as You “Should” Be. It definitely speaks to where I am at currently.

Life is a lot different these days. In some ways it’s the same as it was pre-baby. Work, chores, life, gym, friends and family. It’s similar in routine, we just have a little life with us now. 🙂

But I’m different. My priorities have shifted. My body is different, obviously. And it’s hard to come to terms with that. I was making some progress with weight loss this summer. I lost about 4-ish pounds and was feeling re-energized and motivated.

Then that plateaued. I stalled out. Then I ran into some issues. Sure I could make excuses but the facts are: I was stressed out about Logan starting daycare and did some stress eating. I regained a few of those pounds I’d lost and that was very discouraging. The other fact: I had a major decrease in my milk supply when I tried to reduce my calories.

I wrote a post a few months ago about wanting to get back into fitness and that I wanted to lose some weight but that I obviously Logan was the priority and if I saw a cause and effect in my dieting and milk supply I would back off.

So I did.

I kept working out 4-5 times a week and I was still counting my calories. My priority was feeding Logan. I was disappointed I had to take a break from trying to lose weight but I reminded myself what my priority was at that moment. I came to terms with the fact that my weight loss goals would probably have to wait until I was done breastfeeding.

I started to write this post several months ago. Then we started getting sick. All.The.Time. Seriously–too many colds to count, bronchitis TWICE, sinus infection TWICE, freakin’ pink eye…! It felt like we’d never be well again. Everyone in our house was sick. I’d get back on track with the gym and get in one or two workouts and then I’d get sick AGAIN and take a week off from the gym.

For the last month I’ve been feeling pretty depressed. A big part of that is the constant illnesses. You just don’t feel good about yourself or life when you are sick. And exercise has always been a positive way that I relieve stress and improve my mood. Not being able to do that consistently has effected my moods more than anything, I think.

Waiting to lose weight has been a hard thing to reconcile in my mind, though. Especially since my “identity” has kind of been “the girl who lost 110 pounds” for so long.

Well, recently I’ve come to the realization that I think breastfeeding is coming to an end soon. My supply has dwindled to less than half of what it was. Logan is less interested in breastfeeding and I reached my goal of breastfeeding for 9 months. So starting in January I think I’m going to start slowly weaning and then focusing on my health and losing weight.

I won’t lie — I’m having a hard time with all of this. I’m struggling with the idea of quitting breastfeeding, even if it’s time. I’m feeling very emotional about all of that.

I’m also struggling with going back to being restrictive with my diet in order to lose weight. I thought those days were long over–and that I could easily lose weight doing what I’ve done for 10 years. But the reality is, I’m going to have to buckle down and cut my calories, say no to that second glass of wine, cut out sweets and stop eating old trigger foods (like pizza) in order to lose.

I’ve preached “eating in moderation” and not starving yourself for years and I plan on following my own advice. But I also need to stop making excuses for eating one more cookie or snacking on crap and not logging it. I need to be accountable to myself and honest. 

The day after Christmas, depressed about the photos of myself from the holiday (I mean really, should that have been my focus?? Or should I have been focusing on my baby’s first Christmas?) I stepped on the scale expecting the worst. It wasn’t too bad. I’d gained 3 pounds since the end of October. Basically–all the weight I managed to lose over the summer was back. I still have 20 pounds to lose.

So soon. Soon my body will be mine again and I can get serious about this 20 pounds.