{"id":3423,"date":"2010-07-01T15:34:59","date_gmt":"2010-07-01T22:34:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/hundredtenpounds.wordpress.com\/?p=3423"},"modified":"2010-07-01T15:34:59","modified_gmt":"2010-07-01T22:34:59","slug":"hating-your-body","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/?p=3423","title":{"rendered":"Hating Your Body"},"content":{"rendered":"

Do you ever hate your body?<\/p>\n

When I was 250 I went through weird stages where I’d love my body and flaunt it, then I’d go through stages where I hated my body. The stomach rolls. The thighs rubbing. The big arms. The double chin.<\/p>\n

\"\"<\/a>I lost weight because I became stuck in that “I hate my body” phase and realized there was a different way of living out there. I lost weight because my body HURT <\/span>all the time.<\/p>\n

Well last week I was hating my body again.<\/span> I was so damn MAD at my body. Thoughts like “I didn’t lose 110 pounds to still hurt!” My injury deflated me. I felt betrayed, I felt broken. I felt really pissed off at my body like it was the ENEMY.<\/p>\n

Many times in my weight loss journey I looked at my “fat” as the demon I was trying exorcise. I wanted to get rid of that and never see it again.<\/p>\n

Last week was the first time since I was “fat” that I felt like my body was the Enemy. I kept thinking, “How could I lose so much weight and be soooo healthy and still get injured?” And I thought, “How can so many other people run and not get injured?”<\/p>\n

I did everything right. I didn’t increase my speed or distance too fast. I gradually increased my speed over MONTHS of training. Yes I added stairs to my routine recently, but I had been doing that damn stair-master all winter long. Doesn’t that count for something? Sheesh!<\/p>\n

I still can’t answer any of these questions. My hope is that I am healing and healed soon. I don’t want to injure myself further. But I also don’t want to be sidelined for the entire summer season. I have Hood to Coast in 2 months and I want to be 100% for that!<\/p>\n

I woke up this morning wondering if I would be in pain from yesterday’s run. I wasn’t! There were no twinges, no aches, no strains. I felt okay but I wanted to take it easy anyhow.<\/p>\n

Today is my Rest Day and I’m taking it easy.\u00a0 I want to be able to heal. So far today I’ve been pretty upbeat and happy. Not being in pain changes your outlook drastically <\/span>and I am crossing my fingers that the healing has begun!<\/p>\n

July Weigh-In<\/span><\/span><\/h2>\n

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This month’s weigh in isn’t very exciting. I haven’t lost much of anything…maybe about half a pound. I was disappointed when I got on the scale and saw no change. \ud83d\ude41<\/p>\n

No change could be from a lot of things…getting into an exercise rut, being injured and taking it easy, over-indulging at events and vacations, and…..<\/p>\n

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…..drinking more alcohol (why is it that summertime = alcohol?).<\/p>\n

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I measured and saw a change, however. I lost about 1\/2 an inch around everywhere except my waist where I lost a whole inch! Sweet! I’ll take it. My hope is that I heal quickly and can get back to training. Maybe next month I will see a change!<\/p>\n

QUESTION: How do you change your thinking when it goes to the negative side?<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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