{"id":57918,"date":"2020-01-13T07:14:47","date_gmt":"2020-01-13T15:14:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/?p=57918"},"modified":"2020-01-11T17:15:59","modified_gmt":"2020-01-12T01:15:59","slug":"40-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/?p=57918","title":{"rendered":"40"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

In a few days I turn 40 years old. It’s weird because it was an age that I never looked forward to. When I was in my 30’s I felt this weird pressure the closer I got to 40 because I was going to be “too old” to have a baby (and I was considered “advanced maternal age” and “geriatric pregnancy” with Logan…so many eye rolls!) so there was this dread as 40 was approaching. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

My friend put it well, she said it was “anticipatory grief” and that’s exactly how I feel. I don’t know why. Because I am definitely glad to be alive. I have my health (for the most part) and I am alive. That’s all good, nothing to sneeze at. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I have a son who is going to be 4 years old this year. I have a lovely husband and wonderful animals (two out of the three furbabies are excellent cuddlers!). <\/p>\n\n\n\n

When I think back about my life, I did a lot of stuff! One of my first memories of a big world even was the Berlin Wall coming down. I remember watching it on the news. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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I also remember the Challenger Explosion. I was standing at the bus stop for school when someone told us and then we learned about it at school. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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My first record was Thriller. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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I grew up in Seattle. I did the “Running Start” program at school where I could go to community college and get both high school credits and college credits at the same time. I *almost* graduated high-school with enough credits for my AA degree but needed to take some not so fun classes (math yuck) later to finish. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I had the amazing opportunity to go to London with my cousin, Anna, and when I was 18. It was one of the most amazing trips ever! <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Columbine happened a year after I graduated from high-school and I remember watching it on TV as it happened. When I was 19 I moved to Portland with my boyfriend and went to college and worked. When we broke up, I moved home for the summer to regroup. 9\/11 happened and again, I watched that unfold on TV, too. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I’ve lived in Portland for 21 years now. (Crazy!) I’ve done so much in my life and traveled a LOT. It’s great! And for my birthday we are going back to Hawaii for a week!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Part of it was so I had something to look forward to instead of dreading my birthday! We rented a house on the Big Island with my parents and my brother and his wife. I am SO excited about it! I’ve been looking forward to it for a YEAR! (Yes we booked it a year ago!) It will be amazing! <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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It’s a big house with a huge lanai that has ocean views. I cannot wait to relax on the lanai with a beverage and just chill. The house has a firepit, a big yard, hot tub and outdoor shower. It’s a 15 minute drive from our favorite beach on the island. It’s going to be magical! <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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