{"id":6016,"date":"2010-09-09T08:27:49","date_gmt":"2010-09-09T15:27:49","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/?p=6016"},"modified":"2010-09-09T08:27:49","modified_gmt":"2010-09-09T15:27:49","slug":"im-scared","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/?p=6016","title":{"rendered":"I&#8217;m Scared"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>First, thank you all for the awesome comments on yesterday&#8217;s post <a href=\"http:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/?p=5834\">Lose 100 Pounds, Lose Friends<\/a>.\u00a0It seems that I really touched a nerve with my readers and a lot of people could relate to my story. Even though I debated with myself whether or not to post it (for months actually) I&#8217;m glad I did.<\/p>\n<p>It turned out that a lot more people have experienced what I have than I thought! I loved all the comments but a few really stood out.<\/p>\n<blockquote><p><strong><span style=\"color: #003366;\">My friend Leslie (also my Hood to Coast Captain!) said: \u201ctrue friends and family are the ones that know the real you and love you in spite of it.\u201d<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #333399;\"><strong>Rob said: &#8220;I was *hooked* when you were posting all your Hood to Coast updates.  Anyone who wasn\u2019t impressed with that wasn\u2019t reading your blog.&#8221;<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #003366;\"><strong>And Nicki said: &#8220;You\u2019ve gained so much more than you lost!&#8221;<\/strong><\/span><\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>I hope that my post helped some people. And I hope that it helped me, as well. Maybe I will find some closure and move on completely after &#8220;baring it all.&#8221; I really have gained a lot with losing my weight (insight, friends, health, fitness).<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"text-decoration: underline;\">Wednesday&#8217;s Workout<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Wednesday during lunch I went to the gym in my office instead of running. It was a bummer and I tried to shake off the feeling of being sad and depressed and just focus on my workout.<\/p>\n<p>I warmed up on the elliptical machine for about 10 minutes. I pushed it as hard as my body would allow. I admit, I was mad at my body for being injured.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/ELLIPTICAL.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-6019\" title=\"ELLIPTICAL\" src=\"http:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/ELLIPTICAL-e1283982296986-225x300.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"225\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/ELLIPTICAL-e1283982296986-225x300.jpg 225w, https:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/ELLIPTICAL-e1283982296986.jpg 480w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 225px) 100vw, 225px\" \/><\/a>I did the Hill Intervals. When I was trying to lose my 100 pounds I spent a lot of time in the pool&#8211;and on the elliptical machine. It was my favorite machine. I could spend over an hour, zoning out listening to talk radio or music and suddenly I burned 700 calories or more.<\/p>\n<p>For Wednesday&#8217;s workout, I did intervals:<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>5-10 minutes on the elliptical machine then<\/li>\n<li>3 solid minutes of continual jump rope then<\/li>\n<li>1 minute of ab work on the Ab Ball then<\/li>\n<li>A few sets of weights (arms only) then<\/li>\n<li>Back to the elliptical.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/JUMPROPE1.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-6022\" title=\"JUMPROPE1\" src=\"http:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/JUMPROPE1-e1283982870596-225x300.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"225\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/JUMPROPE1-e1283982870596-225x300.jpg 225w, https:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/JUMPROPE1-e1283982870596.jpg 480w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 225px) 100vw, 225px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/JUMPROPE2.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-6023\" title=\"JUMPROPE2\" src=\"http:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/JUMPROPE2-e1283982907485-225x300.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"225\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/JUMPROPE2-e1283982907485-225x300.jpg 225w, https:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/JUMPROPE2-e1283982907485.jpg 480w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 225px) 100vw, 225px\" \/><\/a>Doing the jump rope for 3 minutes without stopping is a lot harder than you might think! I was able to do it for a few interval sets but by the time my workout was drawing to a close, my knee started to hurt. I guess the impact is what is hurting it\u00a0 (like running). So no more jump rope I guess&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/ABBALL.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-6024\" title=\"ABBALL\" src=\"http:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/ABBALL-e1283983092282-225x300.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"225\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/ABBALL-e1283983092282-225x300.jpg 225w, https:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/ABBALL-e1283983092282.jpg 480w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 225px) 100vw, 225px\" \/><\/a>It was good workout, despite not being able to run. I didn&#8217;t even attempt to run on the treadmill. I want to heal for real and be able to run for real.<\/p>\n<p>In retrospect, the jump rope probably wasn&#8217;t the best thing for my knee. Stupid, I know. I picked up a knee brace on the way home from work.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/brace.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-6038\" title=\"brace\" src=\"http:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/brace-e1284045750759-225x300.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"225\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/brace-e1284045750759-225x300.jpg 225w, https:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/brace-e1284045750759.jpg 480w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 225px) 100vw, 225px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m frustrated and depressed about my injury and not being able to run. I never thought Hood to Coast would be the <strong>CONCLUSION <\/strong>to my story&#8230;I always thought it would just be another <strong>goal<\/strong> that I achieved.<\/p>\n<p>The truth is&#8230; I am <strong>scared<\/strong>.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m scared that my knee\/IT Band injury is <span style=\"color: #800080;\">permanent<\/span>.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m scared that I may never be able to run again.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m scared to lose my fitness level that I&#8217;ve worked so hard to achieve.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m scared that if I CAN ever run again, I&#8217;ll be starting from scratch.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m scared that I might fall off the &#8220;fitness wagon&#8221; and gain back my weight.<\/p>\n<p>Michael is a very logical, unemotional person and for him the solution is easy: Stop exercising completely for a week and stop running for awhile until I heal. Of course that&#8217;s rational and logical, but I have tons of emotions and baggage and internal &#8220;BS&#8221; wrapped around the idea of doing that. It&#8217;s not a simple solution for me&#8211;it&#8217;s an emotional reaction.<\/p>\n<p>I never said that this post would about <strong>RATIONAL <\/strong>fears. But there they are. I&#8217;m trying really hard to be upbeat and positive. To look at the positives:<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li><span style=\"color: #800080;\">Changing your workout routine is a good thing and can help break plateaus.<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"color: #800080;\">Taking a long break from running after the &#8220;Running Season&#8221; is over is never a bad thing.<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"color: #800080;\">Resting after spending over a year training for Hood to Coast is clearly what my body is needing.<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"color: #800080;\">I wanted to switch to cycling for awhile to start working towards my cycling goals.<\/span><\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>As you can see, there are a ton of reasons to look at the bright side and take a break. It still sucks.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m TRYING really hard to be good. <strong>RICE <\/strong>= REST, ICE, COMPRESSION, ELEVATE. I&#8217;m going to take a few weeks off from running and hope that it heals on it&#8217;s own.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Wednesday&#8217;s Stats:<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Time: 35 minutes<br \/>\n<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Calories Burned: 371<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/WATCH.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-6033\" title=\"WATCH\" src=\"http:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/WATCH-e1283986449642-225x300.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"225\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/WATCH-e1283986449642-225x300.jpg 225w, https:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/WATCH-e1283986449642.jpg 480w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 225px) 100vw, 225px\" \/><\/a><em><strong>QUESTION: What are you scared of? And are your fears holding you back at all?<br \/>\n<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>First, thank you all for the awesome comments on yesterday&#8217;s post Lose 100 Pounds, Lose Friends.\u00a0It seems that I really touched a nerve with my readers and a lot of people could relate to my story. Even though I debated with myself whether or not to post it (for months actually) I&#8217;m glad I did. 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