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For 5 years I yo-yoed trying to lose the same 20 pounds. It was so frustrating and I’ve written many times about how discouraged I felt after years of success. Part of me was like, we can’t even think about a second kid until I “lose the baby weight”. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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How many times in my life have I told myself, “I will be happy when I lose XXX amount of weight”.<\/em> Or “I will be happy when I am a size 6.”<\/em> Well before Logan I was a size 10. After Logan I was a size 12. My body never really “bounced back”–it changed shape. Stuff fit weirdly. My hips were wider. I had diastasis recti<\/a> that no amount of weight lifting and PT seemed to fix…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

We bought our new house 2 years ago with the intention of adding to our family. We needed something a little bigger (we had long grown out of our old 1200 square foot ranch) with one more bedroom. Then stuff happened. A lot of stuff happened. We’d talk about trying to get pregnant, then something else would happen. Like the list of shit that has happened to us in the past 2 years is too long and exhausting to even write about.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But we went to Hawaii <\/a>for my 40th birthday and decided it was time to just DO IT. And guess what the universe did?? It created a Pandemic. LOL Gee thanks. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

When I had my birthday this year we talked about it again and the conversation was more like “the window is literally closing” on whether we were going to do this or not. I started to think, why are we waiting for the “perfect time”? There really is NEVER a perfect time. This time is as good as any. We have a house, we have jobs. Logan is starting kindergarten in the fall and daycare costs will be cut in half. It is now or never. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

With Logan it took 5 months of trying. This time it took 4 months. I am feeling grateful that it wasn’t hard or that it took longer because of my age. I know secondary infertility is a really hard thing and I have several friends who have experienced that and it’s heartbreaking. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

First Trimester<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

(Logan – First Trimester<\/a>)<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Since we’d been trying for a few months and I was tracking everything, it wasn’t too much of a surprise. (Other than the week leading up to a positive test I was 100% positive my period was coming because I was having such bad cramps!) When I was late and started taking daily tests to check, I still didn’t believe it!<\/p>\n\n\n\n