{"id":60869,"date":"2022-08-26T10:00:03","date_gmt":"2022-08-26T17:00:03","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/?p=60869"},"modified":"2022-08-26T10:00:04","modified_gmt":"2022-08-26T17:00:04","slug":"running-on-empty","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.110pounds.com\/?p=60869","title":{"rendered":"Running on Empty"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Health and wellness and food and body has been on my mind lately. When I was pregnant with Zoey and had gestational diabetes, it was a huge trigger for me. I felt like I had made a lot of progress in my relationship with food and deprivation. Then all of a sudden, I had to check my blood sugar, I had to eat when I normally wouldn’t (bedtime snack), I had to stop eating things that I liked (like RICE?!?! and bananas). I had to have a very structured day of eating, but not in a good way. And then, if I tested my blood sugar and it was a little high, I’d beat myself up and go into restriction mode. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Obviously, that is not the best thing while pregnant. I didn’t gain very much weight this time (33 pounds with Logan and I think about 23 with Zoey) probably because I wasn’t really eating carbs much. The carbs I ate was oatmeal and fruit, mostly. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

All of this makes me think of the “good food vs bad food” mentality. It was how I lived for 15 years…losing 110 pounds and then keeping it off for 10 years. In the early days I didn’t keep certain foods in the house (sweets) and I never ate pizza or drank alcohol and I ate a lot of processed foods because that was easy to calorie count when you just look at the box. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

When I look back at those years, I see clearly that it was not the healthiest–even though I was at my “skinniest”. But I was keeping the weight off with severe restriction<\/a>–which I did not see at the time. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Now that I’ve had some space and time away from that, I look back and think, damn–how did I not see it?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

When I did keto, I had so many issues! FOOD WAS THE ONLY THING ON MY MIND. Calories and carb counts. I couldn’t eat CARROTS. My hair was falling out, I stopped having my period, I was so exhausted I needed a nap most days. <\/p>\n\n\n

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I saw the above graphic on instagram and it was a punch to the gut. How did I get so obsessed? The good thing about when I lost the weight by counting calories was that I didn’t really restrict my food. I was just eating in moderation. I’d have pizza (sometimes, but not at home), I’d have sweets but only portion controlled. But still…I wasn’t severely restricting like I did with keto.<\/p>\n\n\n

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A lot of things I’ve read have talked about how the key to binge eating is to eat food and be satisfied. When you restrict, you binge. YES. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I listened to a podcast recently about Orthorexia and I wanted to share the highlights. Here is a quiz:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Orthorexia quiz<\/a><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Do you spend more than 3 hours a day thinking about your diet?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Being near foods that I think of being unhealthy or \u2018bad\u2019 makes me feel nervous<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Is the nutritional value of your meal more important than the pleasure of eating it?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I have eliminated more and more foods from my list of \u2018good\u2019 foods.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Have you given up foods you used to enjoy in order to eat the \u2018right\u2019 foods?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Does your diet make it difficult for you to eat out, distancing you from family and friends?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I have a growing list of food rules \u2013 I believe these help me maintain or enhance my health.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

When I think back to the YEARS of deprivation, I wonder: how did I think I’d be able to function when I was running on empty? Constantly? Your car doesn’t drive without fuel, and neither does your body.<\/strong> No wonder I was so tired and lethargic, I was *never* eating enough calories to function.<\/em><\/strong> My body was always in starvation mode. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I had my postpartum bloodwork done a few months ago and I don’t have diabetes, so that’s good. I am trying to figure out how to balance EATING enough food, resting enough, but also not going crazy with food. Intuitive Eating is a journey, one I was NOT ready for back in the day (I still thought of it as a diet!<\/a>). I got the workbook and I am slowly going through it. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Have you come to the realization lately that your relationship with food or exercise has changed? Stay tuned for more free therapy. LOL<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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