I can’t believe my little baby is a FOUR YEAR OLD!
He’s gotten so big and so vocal and so smart. He talks up a storm. He has opinions. He has ideas. He’s creative and sweet and has a big heart. And during this tough time that none of us know how to navigate, when mommy was struggling and getting emotional about the stress of our new realities—my big boy came over and said “Mommy? Are you ok? Can I give you hugs and kisses?”
His birthday party was cancelled. He doesn’t understand why the library and the park is closed or why he can’t have a play date with his friends. But we tried our best to make his birthday weekend special and fun. Lots of outdoor time. A hike in the deserted woods. Long walks in our neighborhood. Bike rides.
Sunday we all slept in a bit (which was good because I don’t sleep much these days, just lay away at night with anxiety). We had breakfast and then let Logan open his first present. A helicopter with a volcano and car. Perfect! He loved it.
Then we spent the morning spacing out Facetime calls to the family and opening cards and presents.
Thankful for technology! So we can at least SEE our family. After Logan’s nap we opened the rest of the presents and had cake.
Logan loved it. He got a bunch of presents and he loved the cake and all the Batman stuff! 🙂 Then outside for some sunshine. He rode his bike for a bit and then back inside for some coloring time (Uncle Andy got him a coloring book of reptiles and a regular book about Hawaii geckos!).
One of Logan’s good friends sent him a video singing happy birthday and we FaceTimed with some more family. <3 It was a good day.
It’s Saturday afternoon as I write this. Just poured a glass of white wine after doing a bunch of chores. Listening to Kate Bush. Logan is watching Wreck It Ralph. Bella is snoring on the couch. Michael ran to the store. First the bad news.
Michael got laid off Friday morning. I guess in a way we should have seen it coming since he was a contractor and lots of people are being laid off, and lots of companies are freaking out right now. But it was still awful. We are crossing our fingers it’s temporary and he’ll be back with his same company/team when this is all over with. His team was unaware of the plan to lay him off. It sounded like an HR decision. It’s still devastating and upsetting and stressful.
Logan’s birthday party was supposed to be Saturday but we cancelled that, obviously, so we decided to go for a little drive Saturday and then hike and have a picnic as a distraction for everything and it helped.
We had breakfast and did a few things then packed the car and drove out toward the beach to LL Stub Stewart Park. It’s a great place, that we’ve gone a bunch of times for hikes and day trips.
I picked it because it was about an hour drive from our house. It got us out of our house, out of the neighborhood, and I figured that with the social distancing it would be an ok place to go to. The park is huge. And I assumed most people would go to local Portland places (like Forest Park) or out in the Gorge to go hiking. (I was sort of right.)
There was still a fair amount of people at Stub Stewart but everyone was doing a good job of distancing themselves from each other. Families stayed together and away from other people. We went for a hike in the forest and didn’t see any other hikers (but did see a few mountain bikers out there–like two pairs).We were there early enough to miss the crowd apparently. I was honestly surprised at how many people were there after we left…
It was so empty we even took Bella off leash! (And you know how I feel about off leash dogs!) She did great. We were out in the woods alone.
It was a little on the chilly side, since it was kind of towards the beach. But we warmed up with our hike. The park was free. The bathrooms were open and had soap and toilet paper and smelled like bleach, so they were cleaning. That was nice. I still used Clorox wipes after using the bathrooms.
It was really good to get out of house after working from home for 5 days, not going to the gym, not going swimming, not seeing friends or family, cancelling Logan’s birthday party, and Michael’s bad news. We all needed a reset. Fresh air, hiking, getting a change of scenery was good for our mental health!
Then we had a picnic lunch on a table in the parking lot. The picnic tables were all spaced out really far from each other, so that was good. There were more people at the park by this time and I saw a lot of people on the other trail (not the one we did), so it was kind of defeating the social distancing thing with that many people. SIGH. This was when we packed up quick and left.
It was a pretty good day, despite everything. I was glad we got out, I was glad there were no people near us. I was glad we weren’t potentially spreading anything or catching anything. We just got a hike in, cleared our heads, and went home.
We came home, unpacked, I took a long hot bath and read a book and made huli huli chicken and roasted vegetables for dinner. It’s a super stressful time and it’s hard not to resort to old patterns dealing with stress. But trying.
