Apr 182016
 

I stopped counting my calories when Logan was born. I had other priorities at the time and honestly I just needed a break. Plus, my schedule was all over the place. I wasn’t really eating meals, or preparing food for myself. I just ate whatever people put in front of me, gratefully! It was a nice break mentally. I focused on eating enough food to not feel starving all the time (which was hard–I think Logan would go through growth spurts because I’d have days where I just could not eat enough food to feel satisfied!).

But a little over three weeks later and it was time to get back into a routine. After the fog of the early days cleared and Michael went back to work, I was starting to feel more myself again and I could also see myself getting into some bad habits. I needed structure again. As much as I could get, anyways.

So I started counting my calories again. In some ways it was kind of a bummer to be back to doing it after a nice little break; but overall it was also comforting and familiar to be sort of “back to normal.”

I also talked to my midwife about doing some light exercise again. I didn’t really want to wait until my 6 week postpartum appointment because honestly at 3 weeks I was feeling a lot better. She said no swimming yet (which I kind of guessed) but said I could do some light, easy exercise like the elliptical, walking, and yoga. She said if I started having postpartum symptoms come back then I needed to take a break or back off. Fair enough! I was going to listen to my body and see how I felt.

I need to get rid of some of the bad habits I let slide back into my life. Drinking diet soda is one of them. I did really well and pretty much gave it up for my entire pregnancy. It wasn’t like I drank a ton before I got pregnant but I was starting to get into the bad habit of having one every day. And honestly diet soda doesn’t make me feel great and makes me crave sweets. I started drinking it again recently and found that I was back to drinking it every day, craving soda and also eating more junk food as a result. No more! Back to sparkling water.

Also, when I was pregnant I craved orange juice like mad. Like had I not reigned it in and controlled myself I could have drank an entire gallon in two days. Now? That craving for orange juice has diminished so I’ve stopped buying it. While I enjoyed drinking it, I don’t need the calories.

I’m trying to make better choices with my food, especially my snacks. Some days it’s hard, especially if Logan is fussy and I can’t put him down to fix something. I need quick and easy food that can be eaten one-handed. I’m trying to get back to focusing on fruit and protein for snacks instead of convenient stuff like protein bars and granola bars.

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I do pretty well with breakfast. Most days Michael helps out and makes me breakfast before he leaves for work. Days he can’t I have oatmeal or I try and make my own eggs. Some days when Logan is super fussy it’s plain Greek Yogurt with fruit gulped down!

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I intend on blogging my weight loss efforts in the future, but right now losing weight isn’t really on my mind. I have days where I feel really good about my body–even though I am 20 pounds over what I was a year ago–and then there are days where I just don’t feel like myself. I miss being active. I’m kind of going stir crazy in the house and would like to get off the couch. Some days it just isn’t happening (like the other day when Logan decided he was not going to nap at all and was fussy and cranky and nothing would soothe him but me cuddling him on the couch).

This won’t become a “mommy blog” per se, but this blog has always kind of been more about just my life and balancing fitness and eating healthy with indulging and living life like a normal person. My intent going forward is to blog about that–balancing life with a newborn, trying to find time to work out and to lose the baby weight– but that isn’t my priority right now. The first step for now is getting back to being accountable (counting my calories) and getting off the couch and back in the gym (when I can).

So I’m counting calories — CHECK!

Now the fitness part!

After the doctor gave me the green light to give it a try, I decided to go to the gym and try out the elliptical. I have to admit, it was kind of hard! After nearly a month off, I definitely felt out of shape. I was winded walking up the stairs (much like I was when I was pregnant), I was slow and had to keep the resistance down but I was able to do it and that felt great!!

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None of my clothes fit really well right now (I think I need to buy some new workout clothes–especially a new sports bra), but I got out there and did about 2.8 miles on the elliptical, around 35 minutes total and then called it good. I was starting to get tired and I suddenly felt REALLY HUNGRY. Like starving. So I headed home and called my first time back a success! (And then took a nap!)

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The next day was really gorgeous out! We planned on going for an urban “hike” in a park but shit went sideways and we never got to do that. 🙁 Everything kind of went wrong (including our garage door breaking) so instead I took Logan for a long walk around the neighborhood. It was something!

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We ended up walking a little bit further than planned but it felt nice to move and be outside in the sunshine and warm weather. Plus, our neighborhood is really hilly so that burned some calories.

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Since our family hike was kind of a bust, we decided to go to a nearby park for a picnic lunch to try and salvage the day. Michael got us a sandwich from Subway and then we took a little walk around the park. It sort of made up for the catastrophes of the morning!

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Sunday Michael went for a run while I fed the baby and then pumped and then I got to go to the gym for a quickie elliptical workout. It was MUCH easier this time around. I don’t know if I got my stamina back already or if having a decent night of sleep did the trick but it was a good workout.

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After that my cousin and a friend came over to make us brunch! It was so sweet of them! They brought all the ingredients and made us chilaquiles, which I’d never heard of before but might be my new favorite breakfast. It was absolutely delicious!

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And of course, mimosas. 😀 I’m not sure how many calories was in brunch, probably a lot, but it was worth it and I enjoyed every bite and it satisfied my insane hunger that I’ve been having lately.

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We sat outside on the deck in the glorious sunny, warm weather and enjoyed the light breeze while we ate brunch. It was kind of the perfect day. After they left Michael and I took Logan and Bella for a 1.55 mile walk in the sunshine. Then I was pretty much pooped for the rest of the day!

This coming week I plan I going to yoga again (looking forward to that!), another gym session and if weather permits, a few walks with the dog and baby!

 

Apr 132016
 

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I’d have to say that one of the more difficult things with a newborn is figuring out a new normal– trying to figure out a schedule, trying to figure out HIS schedule, and figuring out what things you can just let go of.

Logan is a hungry boy and after a rough start with breast feeding and having to supplement with formula for a few days, I am happy to say we’re now feeding him entirely breast milk. I’m definitely making enough milk that I even have some that I’ve had to freeze (which will be great for later). Maybe it was those lactation cookies!

One thing though, with all of his eating and pumping on such a frequent basis, it’s been difficult to eat regular meals and cook. I am so grateful that a friend set up a Meal Train for us and that friends have brought us meals! It was a serious lifesaver. If you know anyone in your life that is having a baby or medical issues or just needs assistance, this is such a great idea!

One friend brought us burritos one night. Another brought meatloaf and some fancy bread from a local Portland bakery and then a week later she brought us homemade turkey chili with her amazing cornbread.

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Another friend made us chicken enchiladas and salad (after a week of eating junk food and convenience food, veggies were divine) and some treats.

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Another friend made mac n’ cheese and brought us salad and BBQ from Podnah’s!

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One friend came by to meet Logan and brought me macarons. 😀

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People have been so amazing. It was such a relief to have tasty food for dinner (and with leftovers) — especially after a really long day when I was super sleep deprived and just plain exhausted. And the leftovers were brilliant when Michael went back to work and I had to fend for myself for lunches. Simple things like finding time to make myself lunch has been a struggle on some days! Who knew??

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So trying to figure out eating has been a struggle. I’ve been able to get a shower every day and leave the house for a walk. I’ve even gone on a few solo walks with Logan and Bella:

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Bella has been great on our walks! She figured out the stroller pretty quickly and is even more well behaved now than she used to be on walks. The weather has been pretty nice (last week it was even in the high 70’s and 80’s!) and getting outside to walk has done wonders. I love being home with Logan but at the same time it’s kind of hard to be in the house all day. I’m so used to having a busy schedule, suddenly not having “stuff” to do is weird. So we go for walks (sometimes twice a day if the weather is nice) and he likes the walks, too. It’s good for all of us.

In some ways I’m starting to get the itch to work out again. I definitely can’t swim yet. I think it’s wise to wait for my 6 week check up with the doctor before doing that. But I’m thinking I might be up to trying the elliptical at the gym soon. That’s pretty easy and low impact and I can’t imagine it would do any “damage” if I take it easy. The rest of it — weight lifting, running, etc, can also wait until I get cleared by the doctor. My doctor agreed. She said it was ok to try doing the elliptical and yoga again but not to do too much too soon.

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Also, our new couch arrived! I am so glad we got the couch and that it came at the perfect time because we spend a lot of time lounging on the couch with the baby, cuddling and nursing and just hanging out. The couch is great. We broke it in with all of us laying on the couch snuggling and watched Jurassic Park. 😉

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Right now my days and nights kind of look like this:

 

1:00am – I wake up automatically pretty much like clockwork and Logan starts making noises that he’s hungry. I feed him, change his diaper, snuggle and burp him and then put him back to bed while I pump. Then go back to sleep somewhere around 2am (and some nights Logan decides he doesn’t want to go back to sleep).

4:30am – Logan gets fussy and wants his diaper changed and is hungry. Michael usually gets up and takes care of this one.

6:00am – Michael gets up with the baby while I try and get a little more sleep. He showers and gets ready for work and then puts Logan back in the bassinet next to me.

7:00am -I usually start waking up around this time anyways. It’s time to pump again. Feed the baby.

8:00am – I try and eat breakfast. Some days Michael has time to make me breakfast before he leaves for work, which is really helpful.

9:00am – Baby and I both try and take a little nap. It depends on the day if this happens!

10:00am – He’s up and ready to play! Well, maybe not play so much as cuddle and look around at everything. I shower and do some chores. It seems like there is always laundry to do. And time to feed him and pump again (noticing a theme?).

11:00am – Logan, Bella and I go for a walk in the neighborhood.

12:00pm – Lunch time for both of us (usually him first so he goes to sleep and I can eat!).

1:00pm – More naps! I’m getting between 20-60 minutes of sleep at a time during the day, it just depends on how long he sleeps.

2:00pm – Logan, Bella and I go for another walk (weather permitting). Feed the baby and pump when we get back.

5:00pm – Michael gets home from work, takes the baby so I can either take another nap or do something for myself. I feed Logan and pump and then we start the evening routine. Dinner, more chores, watch some TV shows, etc.

8:00pm – The evening routine of feeding Logan and pumping and getting everything ready for that 1am feeding that is totally brutal. It’s the hardest part of the day–getting up at that ungodly hour!

9:30pm – Lately been trying to be in bed and asleep before 10 since I have to get up at 1am. Logan is pretty good about sleep for a few hours at this time and it’s made a huge difference!

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We saw the ENT specialist this week and he clipped Logan’s tongue tie. I’m already seeing a HUGE difference with feeding and I am optimistic that this will make things so much better. For one, I will be able to leave the house for longer periods of time if I’m not chained to the pump like I currently am. I am looking forward to just being able to feed him out and about. I’m already making plans with some friends and thinking of outings to get us out of the house and off the couch.

I’m sure our new “normal” will shift and change on a weekly, if not daily basis, but right now we’re making things work. Sort of! 🙂 And I’m looking forward to getting back to some light exercise!