May 182016
 

 

Mr. Giggles is now 2 months old!

He’s gotten so big! In some ways he’s still teeny tiny but he’s starting to fill out a little bit and get a little baby chunk. He’s about 12 pounds now.

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He’s grown out of so many outfits! Most of his 3 month old onesies don’t fit. He’s now in the 3-6 month sized onesies. I think the biggest growth is length. I’m not sure how long he is right now but he’s too long for many of his outfits! And he grew out of his swaddle sack overnight (literally).

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Logan is more active and more awake these days. He recently discovered his hands and his new thing is shoving his fist into his mouth. It’s pretty cool to watch him discover things and I get to see the world through his eyes as he explores.

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He likes to talk and babble and coo. He also recently discovered his OTHER voice…the crying voice! Instead of those “I’m sort of unhappy but not really complaining about it yet” cries he’s had this whole time he’s now “I am MAD! Fix it mom!” Thankfully this doesn’t happen too often but if he’s in a particular mood and hungry or needs a diaper change and I’m taking a teeny bit too long he lets me know! The good thing is that he gets over it pretty quickly and gets back to his happy baby self!

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He’s trying to figure out how to roll. He’s rolled onto his side a few times in his crib when he’s playing but I don’t think it was on purpose and he hasn’t quite figured out what he’s doing. There’s a lot of flailing and kicking.

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He’s such a happy baby. He has days here and there where he is extra needy and just wants to be cuddled and held. I’m ok with that. I feel like these times will be short lived and soon he won’t want to be held and I’ll miss it.

It’s a clique to say “he’s growing so fast!” but he really is. Part of me is excited for the next thing he’s going to learn– sitting up, rolling, crawling, etc–and excited for that to happen. But part of me is already sad that he’s going to grow up and not be a teeny baby anymore! So for now I just marvel at the changes he makes almost every day and give him lots of hugs and kisses because at some point he won’t want hugs and kisses from his mama. 😉

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Last week I went back to the pool for the first time in 8 weeks! I was a little nervous about going swimming after such a long break but it was great. It didn’t feel like I had taken two months off and I was able to get right back into it. I swam a little over a mile in 45 minutes (which was about what I was doing when I was pregnant) without having to take a break. I could have gone longer but I stopped, not because I was tired, but because I was getting REALLY hungry!

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Also, it felt amazing to be able to relax in the hot tub and sauna again!  Boy oh boy was I starving after my swim, though.

Physically I’m doing pretty good 2 months postpartum. Still mildly sleep deprived but I don’t imagine that will improve any time soon. I go back to work soon and I’m slightly worried about how the sleep deprivation will effect that…but what am I going to do about that? I think this is going to be our norm for awhile.

Weight wise I’m the same. I gained 33 pounds pregnant and lost 18 that first week or so being home. Most of that was just giving birth but some of it was losing fluids I think. I haven’t lost any weight since then. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t slightly disappointed that the weight isn’t “melting off” like so many people say it does when you’re breastfeeding. But I’ve also read that a lot of women don’t have that experience and their body holds onto the weight while they are breastfeeding and it isn’t until they start to wean that the weight loss happens.

Sure, I wish I was one of those lucky people that have the weight melt off. But, I’m ok with just maintaining where I am at right now. My priority is breastfeeding and making sure Logan gets enough. I don’t want to see my milk supply get effected and I am routinely pretty hungry as a result of breastfeeding so I eat. I’m counting my calories, staying within a reasonable number, and I’m back to working out on a regular basis (about 4 days a week) and I’m not willing to drop my calories to a restrictive number just to see if I can lose some weight. It’s been 2 months, I have plenty of time for that later.

Other than that, things are going really well. I feel good. We’ve got a decent routine going– which will change here soon when I go back to work. But things are good and I’m really happy. Logan brings so much joy into our lives. Sometimes we just look at each other and marvel at how lucky we are to have a sweet, happy, good-natured little cutie as our baby. I suppose this means he’ll be a hellion when he’s a teenager, huh?? 😉

Mar 112016
 

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I kind of wish our doctor hadn’t said (several times) that this baby would be early. First, I don’t think doctors can really tell. Second, I feel like she jinxed us. And lastly, I feel like she set us up for the expectation that he might be early and then…39 weeks comes and still no baby…disappointing! Especially considering MOST first babies are LATE.

So for three-ish weeks now I’ve had off and on cramping every day and every few days I start having contractions that last a few hours and then stop. Every time it happens I think “this isn’t real” and then the contractions start to change and I think “hmmm maybe these ARE the real thing?!” I try not to get too excited but it’s hard not be excited! And then…the contractions stop.

39 Weeks

Had our 39 week doctor appointment. Blood pressure was 102/58. Everything sounded good and normal and I was measuring on point.

Not much has changed. Still around 1 cm dilated–not quite 2 cm. She said he’s lower than he was last week; which I was actually wondering about because I thought he felt lower. And I used to be able to feel his little butt and legs in certain spots and haven’t felt them there the last few days.

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Because of my age (I am a geriatric mom afterall — I hate that label) the doctor said they probably wouldn’t let me go too far past my due date so if he’s not here in the next week or so we might be talking induction. I really hope not. While my Birth Plan was’t all that detailed and I am in the “whatever happens, happens” boat, scheduling an induction was not on my radar for this thing. Who knows. I’m crossing my fingers he decides to make his grand entrance this weekend.

Emotions

At the tail end of Week 38 and the beginning of Week 39 I think I had some kind of surge of hormones or something. Suddenly I was an emotional mess, crying at everything. Even little things that shouldn’t make you cry. Probably a combination of hormones + lack of sleep + feeling ready to be done. Also, I’ve had an acne outbreak with I’ve thankfully been avoiding for the last few months…so more hormonal changes??

Am I nervous? Starting to be. I hadn’t been nervous and anxious about the birth process mostly because I didn’t really know what to expect and hadn’t given it too much thought. I know, that makes no sense. But the last week or so I decided to read some birth stories by bloggers I like and I think the details kind of made me nervous. Mostly the time involved in the birth — like what if it takes 2 days?!?! And also the pain. So that has me slightly nervous but I’m trying not to overthink it too much. I mean, what can I do about it? It’s going to happen the way it happens…

My Body 

How am I feeling? Mixed bag. I was officially over it a few weeks ago. The body aches and pains are kind of constant. It is difficult to walk sometimes because of the pressure, how low he is and the ligaments feel stretched to the max.

Despite that, I suppose I am feeling okay. No other real complaints other than being uncomfortable. I’m still working out. Swimming is the best. It’s the only activity and time where all the aches and pains go away. I can swim and feel good, which is nice. I do a mile twice a week and always feel better after I do it. I do the elliptical 1-2x a week and that feels ok. There’s not much else I can do at this point.

I got some tea that is supposed to help with labor –red raspberry leaf. It tasted really good. Supposedly it helps “tone” the uterus and can assist in moving things a long with labor. I drank it once and about an hour or so later I felt sick to my stomach. Like I was going to be sick. I’m not sure if it was a fluke because I haven’t tried the tea again since. Lots of people swear by it so I will give it another try. Maybe I just won’t have it right before bed.

Nesting

Not really having the nesting urge lately. I’d had the urge (like crazy!!!) for months but the last few weeks it’s been the opposite–I feel more like a slug than some super-crazy-nesting-clean-everything. But we did go couch shopping (about 2 years overdue) so maybe that’s nesting?

The animals have been going ABSOLUTELY BONKERS lately.

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I swear, either it was a full moon, the Spring Crazies or an impending Earthquake or something because for the last week they’ve all been absolutely CRAZED OUT OF THEIR MINDS. Bella is doing laps through the house, unable to sit still for 2 seconds, she’s chasing Fat Kitty, Fat Kitty is teasing her. They are both being such spazzes! I have no idea what’s going on. And in between the crazy spazz-outs they both come over and sniff my belly. Maybe they can tell something is happening?!?

This is kind of my mood lately:

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So that’s about it from our neck of the woods. Probably won’t update again until he’s here! 🙂