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Logan’s Birth Story – Part 2

Part 1 is here. 

I left off with the jacuzzi tub. The nurse came in and gave me some fentanyl, which was nice and took the edge off the contractions but didn’t take away the pain. It made them still painful but I didn’t feel like I was dying! I lounged in the tub and let the drugs just kind of make me sleepy. It was hard to keep my eyes open and really only became “awake” when the contractions would come.

Finally it was starting to get to be too much. The contractions were getting worse and I was also starting to feel sick to my stomach. I don’t really do well with medications like that and even though they gave me anti-nausea medication with the fentanyl, it wasn’t helping anymore. It was time to get out of the tub and have the epidural. Michael let the nurse know and she told the anesthesiologist. We were told it could take up to 45 minutes to get going. That kind of made me panic a little bit!

Michael and the nurse helped me out of the tub, which was really hard. Not only was I slow and loopy from the medication, but the contractions were coming so fast that I’d have to stop whatever I was doing when they came. I finally got out and leaned against the hospital bed that was in the highest position it could be. I leaned over and tried to breathe through the contractions, tried not to throw up, while Michael held me and the nurse dried me off.

The walk back to our room wasn’t very far but when you’re having contractions it feels very very far away. Finally we made it back. They put the epidural in (it was around 10:30) and within a few minutes I was feeling a million times better!

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I had a little statue of a goddess giving birth that I was using as a focal point and I’d bought two LED candles, which turned out to be the best idea ever. They really helped (and we are still using them now that we’re home). I got in bed and knew that this was pretty much where I’d be for the rest of the journey. The epidural kicked in and I could still feel my body and wiggle my toes but the contractions were so manageable that I was able to sleep!

For the next two hours Michael and I slept in the dark room. At midnight the midwife came in and did the last check. I was fully effaced, at station 0 and 7cm dilated. She said that we should rest for awhile and that she figured we’d probably start the labor process around 3. Sleeping sounded fantastic!

Michael slept and I dozed off and on. I woke up a few times from the contractions and could use a button to kick in the epidural a little more. It was limited in how much and I had no idea how much or how often the button worked. I tried not to press it too often because even though the pain had been so bad I thought I couldn’t take it, now I wanted to kind of experience some of the process without being completely numb to it all.

I woke up one time and realized that I couldn’t feel my left leg at all. I could still feel the right and wiggle my toes, but the left felt completely dead. That disturbed me and I called the nurse. They came in and checked and determined everything was fine, this was just something that happened with epidurals. I still found it really disturbing and I backed off on the button even more and tried to rest without using it.

Around 3am I started to feel pressure. Instead of contractions it felt like…I guess like maybe the baby was trying to crawl out? It’s really hard to describe the feeling. The nurse came in and checked on me and said it was going to be a little bit longer before the midwife came in because she was delivering a baby next door as we spoke. That was fine with me. I just went back to dozing and listening to the baby heart beat monitor.

At 4am the midwife and nurse came in, as did the baby nurse who would be there for the birth. They prepped everything as I just laid there and then things were suddenly moving very quickly. After spending a day just waiting for things to happen it was happening!

At 4:30 we started pushing. Michael was at my side. The candles were still going and we had our music playing. I don’t remember the exact song that was playing when Logan was born but I remember the three songs that were playing as we pushed. CSNY “Suite Judy Blue Eyes” (which is funny because it’s kind of an inside joke between Michael and me), “Take It Easy” by the Eagles and “Easy” by Faith No More.

Because my left leg felt completely dead, I couldn’t hold it up to push so they put that one in a stirrup and I held the right leg. The nurse and midwife coached me on how to push, we did a practice round and then got started. They had me take a deep breathe, lean forward and push while holding my breathe (which I didn’t get at first and kept letting the air out), then inhale again, hold it and push. So three pushes each contraction and then I’d rest.

I couldn’t really feel the contractions so they told me when it was time to push, but I could feel the pressure start building and that told me that it was almost time to push, too.

After just a few rounds of pushing the midwife said he was coming! One last push and all of a sudden there were cries.

His little bird cries were precious. He wasn’t wailing, but just making it known that he was here. 🙂 They immediately put this little creature on my bare belly and he opened his eyes and stopped crying and just looked up at me and then looked all around the room. My mom said that I did the same thing when I was born.

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His little cries turned into squeaks and he settled down and just chilled while he laid on me and they did some checks–listened to his heart, lungs and took his temperature–all while snuggling with me.

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I just could not get over how alert he was and how he kept looking up at me. There were lots of happy tears and I just felt in awe of what just happened.

The rest of the stuff–I have no idea. I was kind of in my own little world with Logan and Michael. I guess the midwife delivered my placenta, didn’t feel it or remember it, and I guess we got a photo of it but I don’t remember that happening either. Then everyone left for about an hour while we just snuggled our new baby.

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Having that quiet time with just the three of us was amazing.

So after just under 30 minutes of pushing, Logan was here–8.4 pounds and 20.5 inches long!

After and hour they came back and took Logan away to do the other stuff. He was still in the room with us but over on the little baby warmer. Michael went with him while they weighed and measured him, took his foot prints and did some more testings. His Apgar score was 8 and then 9. Then they gave him back to me while they did the rest of the stuff they needed to do to check me.

Another hour of cuddles and Michael called everyone to give them the news. Then it was time to be moved to our recovery room. And I ate that piece of apple pie for breakfast. 🙂

40 Weeks

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The due date came and went. After a month of contractions and false starts, everything kind of stopped. What was up with that?!? Everything was moving along at a fast pace–he dropped into position kind of early, lost my mucus plug, having contractions, was slowly dilating and effacing…and then for it to all STOP was confusing!

On our due date we went to the doctor for a Non-Stress Test. Basically I just hung out on a bed for about 30 minutes while they monitored the baby’s heart rate with belts attached to my belly. His heart rate was perfect. Then we had an ultrasound. She checked his positioning and then measured the amniotic fluid levels (all good). We saw his heart beat on the ultrasound, he kicked and waved and we even got to see his little lungs practicing breathing! After that we saw a midwife (not our usual one) and she discussed induction. We decided to schedule it, with the hope that he’d decide to come on his own now that we had a date scheduled!

I had the day off from work so I went home, Michael went to work. I did some cleaning and laundry (washed the sheets on the bed because I figured THAT would make him come, right?? Freshly washed sheets = water breaking in the middle of the night, right??), gave Bella a bath, went to the gym and did the elliptical with the hopes of it moving things along. Took a nap…tried not to think about how it was my due date…

The midwife suggested I try acupuncture so I went in on Tuesday the 15th and she did acupuncture for nudging labor along. She did certain pressure points and then attached something similar to TENS to several of the needles–kind of a weird sensation. I had some mild cramping later that evening but no contractions.

Emotionally I was having mixed feelings. I was of course happy and excited to meet our little guy, disappointed he wasn’t here yet, and then also starting to get kind of worried–worried about potentially being induced and having complications or having a higher risk of having to have a c-section…all of those worry thoughts kept creeping in and I tried my best to just live in denial and NOT think about any of it.

Wednesday the 16th I had mild cramping all day that kind of increased, but no real contractions. After work I went in again for a second acupuncture treatment. It was really nice and relaxing and I actually fell asleep this time. Nothing seemed to nudge the baby though.

Thursday we went back to the doctor and other than him being slightly lower, no changes. She did a membrane sweep and said that’s it’s really a 50-50 gamble on whether it does anything at all, but worth a try right? We did another NST and everything was still good and normal.

At this point it’s looking like induction. This kid is stubborn and not ready to come out! I should have known. When we did the ultrasound for his anatomy scan and to find out what we were having he was stubborn even then! He kept his legs crossed the entire time and refused to move so we could see if it was a boy or girl. The tech had me change positions, drink water, pee, everything–trying to get him to move and show us the goods. He waited the entire hour exam until the very end to uncross those legs. STUBBORN! 😉

So no changes, no updates, no baby yet. I’m going to take it easy this weekend.

In other news: my cousin sent me this gorgeous handmade quilt she made for the baby!

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It’s so beautiful and goes perfectly with the nursery! So cute!!

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And Bella is READY to be a big sister. She’s over it and tired of waiting. 🙂

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Me too, Bell. 🙂