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Positive Thinking, Positive Change

I wanted to give an update about a post I wrote about medications and weight over the summer. Read that post for the background but the cliff notes version: I gained 10 pounds on a medication this summer.

I had a choice to make, try a different medication, or just keep going with prozac, which was working very well for my anxiety. I decided to give the buspar a chance per my doctor. I stopped the prozac and switched to the other one. Right off the bat, I was not a fan. It did absolutely nothing for my anxiety. I gave it over a month, waiting with white knuckles for it to finally kick in and start working…and nothing.

I was even having occasional panic attacks, which was not traditionally a component of my anxiety. So that was fun! I talked to my doctor and he increased the dosage. Within a few days of that, I started having really awful side effects. The biggest one was heart palpitations. Like constantly. It took me a few days to realize that the never ending heart palpitations might be because of the meds. I googled it and sure enough, “if you have this side effect, call your doctor immediately”. YAY! 🙁

So I stopped the buspar immediately and within a day or so the side effects were better and mostly gone. That’s the good news. The bad news? I was still in the same boat as I was before.

I went back on a low dose of the prozac and I am trying to manage my anxiety with mindfulness and a relaxation app I downloaded. The one I usually use is Breathe2RelaxI also use the Oak app. I like them and they work pretty well when I’m in the middle of an anxiety attack.

As for the weight I gained this summer…I am making good choices to lose it.

  1. No candy/dessert (which has been very hard with all the Halloween candy that’s EVERYWHERE!) but I am doing well with that so far.
  2. No alcohol Monday-Thursday and on Friday/Saturday nights I can have 1 drink (instead of my usual 2).
  3. Reminding myself it’s ok to be hungry sometimes.
  4. Taking the stairs at work. I go up and down between several floors multiple times a day and I’ve started using the stairs instead. It’s the little things that add up.
  5. I’m still working out my normal 5 days a week with 2 rest days.
  6. I’m counting my calories still but I am trying to actually create a deficit instead of eating back all of the calories in the gym.
  7. Weighing myself once a week. When I was in maintenance mode I was weighing once a month, or even less. If my clothes got tight, then I’d weigh myself, but I basically stuck at the same place.

The first week I lost almost 2 pounds. The second week I lost another pound. Over that weekend I wasn’t feeling 100% so I skipped drinking for the most part. I also didn’t have much of an appetite, so I think that helped jump start things.

As far as the mental aspect, I am doing well. My anxiety is “ok” and I’m feeling super focused on losing the weight. I am finding it easier to resist treats and things that are my downfall, so I think my mind is IN THE GAME on this.

Then Thanksgiving weekend hit–pie, wine, carbs…you know the drill. I didn’t weigh myself for 2 weeks and finally got back on the scale. This weekend I weighed myself after taking a few weeks off from the scale and was happy to see a few more pounds gone! I am now down a total of 7 pounds since October! WOOHOO!

I will keep you posted on my progress.

Day in the Life

Friday Friday Friday!

I work long hours during the week with my (newish) schedule so that every other Friday I have the day off. The alternate Fridays I do work, it’s a shorter day! YAY!

Day in the Life

5:35am – Alarm goes off. I lay there for a minute hating life because I am SO not a morning person. (The perfect work schedule for me would be, like 9-4, with my sleeping until 8am!) Then up to shower. Weigh in – 166. Thankfully didn’t gain any weight over the holidays with Christmas cookies, being sick and taking prednisone! YAY!

6:00am – Get Logan up and dressed and in his highchair. Michael makes us breakfast. Scrambled eggs, sausage, salsa and hot sauce, plus a big glass of EmergenC (doing everything I can to stay healthy!). Around 400 calories total. We eat and get ready to go.

6:25am – After several trips to load all the crap into the car, I drive to daycare. The new daycare is great and it’s nice that it’s pretty convenient for the commute.

6:40am – Drop Logan off at daycare, make funny faces in the window and then drive to work in traffic!

7:05am – Park in my parking place and depending on how late I am, run to the bus stop, take the bus across the river to work.

7:15am – Start working. Make my coffee (I should probably start making my coffee at home…) Since having a kid I’ve become a 2 coffee a day person often! I spend the next few hours working, working, working. I spend a lot of time walking back and forth from my desk to the printer for stuff. So I get a LOT of steps in. Here’s an example:

Quite a bit, huh? 3 of those miles was my run, but basically I walk several miles a day just around the office.

10:30am – Mid-morning snack before working out. Today it’s a small gala apple and a slice of Tillamook cheddar cheese. Around 150 calories. 

11:00am – Time to work out! If I want to use the gym at work during my lunch hour, I have to go kind of early. On certain days there are yoga classes and they don’t allow you to workout at the same time, so I stagger my lunch to avoid the class. I also go at odd times to avoid crowds in the gym (especially this time of year!).

This day, I run 3 miles on the treadmill in 43 minutes. Not a great run. It’s the second run I’ve done since being sick and taking a few weeks off. It was rough and my heart rate was pretty high the entire time and I had to take a lot of walking breaks just to get my heart rate normal.

11:45am – Finish workout. Foam roll and stretch. Quick shower and dry my hair.

12:15pm – Back to my desk. I heat up lunch, or make a salad, and eat at my desk while I go through emails I missed during my lunchbreak. This day is a salad with leftover steak.

2:30pm – Small snack. Salami. 80 calories. I take a quick break at work and finish reading my book (Mitch Rapp #9).

4:00pm – OFF WORK! YAY! WEEKEND! Bus back to my car, drive home. Play with Logan. Check out the video on my Instagram of Logan when I got home 🙂

5:30pm – Dinner and bath time for Logan! Maya came to visit Logan while he was in the bath. 🙂

7:00pm – Bedtime for the little Booger. We do the bedtime routine and Michael fixes us dinner. I open a bottle of wine and immediately change into my PJs. Exciting Friday night, huh? 😉

I really liked this wine. I got it at a discount store and went in blind and was happily surprised it was a good bottle! It smelled very sweet and floral but was not sweet to taste. It was very dry and crisp, like a Sauvignon Blanc.

Dinner was a grilled pork tenderloin, seasoned with lemon pepper, sauteed Brussels Sprouts with bacon (I LOVE Brussels sprouts and could eat them every day) and some fresh mozzarella cheese. Dinner was delicious! And around 700 calories. Dessert was a small piece of chocolate fudge, handmade by a friend. Yum!

8:00pm – We usually watch a movie on Friday nights (last Friday we watched “Get Out”! SO GOOD! Watch it!) but this night we decided to just hang out and talk for awhile. It was nice!

I’m not going to post when we went to bed because it’s embarrassingly early. But yeah, I started a new book and will let you know how it is!