Apr 212014
 

Back in February I posted T is for Truth where I admitted I have been struggling this winter. There were a lot of reasons (excuses) for the weight gain–I’ve been more sick this winter than any other (getting a cold/sinus infection three times!), I took a month off from weight lifting due to an injury, the typical holiday eating packed on some pounds, there was some stressful bullshit going on (those issues have since been resolved) and that led to some stress eating. I also changed my birth control–which cleared up my acne but caused some very unfortunately weight gain.

I was up to 149. 1 pound from goal weight. That buffer area is important to me. I like having some wiggle room between my current weight and my goal weight–it allows me to indulge once in awhile and not see the scales tip. I usually fluctuate between 144-146. That 149 was scary. I decided I needed to get my act together.

I wasn’t feeling good about myself and that was making me not feel good about everything else in my life. It sounds whiny, I know, but feeling uncomfortable in my skin colors how I see the rest of the world/go through my day. I wish I was stronger and didn’t let the self-esteem issues effect me in such a way. But when none of your clothes fit, it’s hard NOT to look in the mirror and feel disdain. Then Lori at Finding Radiance confessed that her self-esteem had taken a beating lately. It was nice to read that another maintainer was feeling similarly and it was comforting in a way.

I cleaned up my diet in a number of ways. I reduced or eliminated the liquid calories I was consuming. Having one glass of wine on a Friday and Saturday night is sufficient. Drinking during the week isn’t necessary and just packs on the pounds. I also took a look at my sugar habit. It was a little out of control this winter! I finally finished that tub of Nutella (it only took me 4 months) so that temptation is out of the house! I’ve stopped buying ice cream and other desserts. I do have dessert but I’m trying to make better choices and not eat it every night.

Last week I weighed myself for the monthly check-in. I was anxious. I’d been doing well with my food for weeks but my pants were STILL TOO TIGHT. Like skintight. I didn’t have high hopes. I was happily surprised! I’d lost a few pounds; weighing in at 147. I’ll take it. Progress is progress, even if it’s just a little bit.

I’m confused and frustrated that my pants don’t fit. I’m only 3-4 pounds higher than I was this time last year when my pants all fit. I find it hard to believe that 4 pounds could really make such a difference that my pants won’t button now. What is up with that??

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For awhile I will try to post once a week discussing my progress and making goals. I think I’ve gotten out of my funk and I’m ready to get serious.

This Week’s Goals

ACCURATELY track my calories each day–this means all the bites, nibbles, sips, snacks. It also means not lying to myself when I KNOW I ate more than one serving of something…

Drink at least 3 water bottles of water at work in addition to the water I drink at home and at the gym.

Strive to leave 200 calories left for each day in my “bank.” On days I work out I do eat more calories and I often justify the extra treats. Many days I have less than 100 calories leftover for the day. That’s not creating any kind of deficit. I think 200 calories is a good number to be left for the day.

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I will check in next week!

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Apr 152014
 

Funny story…

Our dog will roll around in the grass, splash in puddles and (gross–trying to keep her from doing this) eat cat poo but will NOT go potty when it’s rainy. She puts on her pitiful puppy dog face and sad eyes and sits on the back deck refusing to go out into the rain. We’ve even gone out there, in the rain with her and she still won’t. The last time I tried it with an umbrella she immediately ran underneath a bush and cowered.

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I eventually gave up and went inside and just let her stay out there until she finally went (the stubborn thing took like 30 minutes!). Sorry pup, we live in Oregon. Get used to the rain. IT NEVER STOPS. Speaking of Bella…

Funny story…

I was grocery shopping recently and was in the baby food isle picking up some sweet potato and the chicken puree. A little old lady in the isle asked me how old babies are when they start eating the jar food. I replied, “I wouldn’t know. I don’t have a baby, I have a dog.” She laughed SO hard. She asked me why I buy baby food for my dog. I explained that I buy the sweet potato or the chicken baby food and put it in Bella’s Kong toy. Then I freeze it and she gets it when she’s in the crate while we are at work. She thought that was ingenious.

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She went on to tell me about how she had a scotty dog that passed away a few years ago and she sometimes wished she had another dog. We chatted for a few minutes and I shared some of the experiences I had volunteering at animal shelters. I suggested that she consider adopting a senior dog. The benefits are so great! It’s older, more relaxed (no crazy puppy energy), already trained and it’s also saving a life. The older dogs are often the ones that euthanized because people don’t adopt them. She seemed genuinely interested and I hope she does adopt a senior dog!

Funny story…

4 years ago I started this blog on a whim because the blogger Monica from Run, Eat Repeat asked me to write a guest post about my weight loss. I thought, well dang….maybe *I* can have a blog too! I sort of half-assed it and didn’t really know what I was doing and didn’t really know HOW to write a blog. My blog posts were very, very short, not really focused and I slowly shared my weight loss story as thought came to me. Then somehow I got readers. I was shocked! The more readers I got, the more comments I got, the more I paid attention to my writing.

It had been a long time since I’d written anything. After writing a few novels and failing to get them published, I felt discouraged and gave up. The blog was an outlet for me to dust off the ol’ writing skills and polish them up a bit.

Then I started getting more attention. My little blog that was kind of clunky and terribly formatted in Blogger, was getting so much attention that I was asked to do interviews. (You can check out some of those here.) I moved the blog over to WordPress, made it look a little bit nicer (with Michael’s help), took some photography classes, Michael built me a lightbox…then ta-da! I was on the cover of a magazine! WOW.

Well funny story, this little blog that was started on a whim to share a story I didn’t think anyone was interested in reading has recently surpassed the million page view mark! Perhaps it’s not as crazy a number as many popular blogs and I sure don’t make money off my blog like full-time bloggers, but dang! I’m pretty happy with that 1 million readers!

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So many, many thanks to all my readers–new readers, old readers who have been reading since the beginning. Thank you! It makes me so happy that I’ve inspired people to get fit and healthy! I’ve also made some real life friends that I met through blogging and that’s even better. :)

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