Mystery Solved?

I wanted to give a few updates on some stuff. First, my hips and knees. If you’ve read my blog for a long time you know I’ve had knee issues FOR-EVER. Runner’s knee. IT band issues. Some mysterious knee issue two years ago that ended up needing cortisone shots. You name it, I’ve had it. I’ve had X-rays, multiple MRIs, seen specialists….

I’ve been in PT for YEARS. I’ve tried strengthening my body, I’ve tried yoga. I’ve tried stretching, using knee straps for when I run (which helped a lot).

The cortisone shots helped a lot for my right knee. The first shot lasted almost 4 months. I got a second shot in January, right before we went to Hawaii. Knock on wood, it’s still going. So 10 months later…Cross your fingers it keeps working.

So the knee issues have been very discouraging. It’s meant that my running is limited to twice a week. I am a SLOW runner now. I take a lot of walking breaks. I no longer try and up my mileage. I still to less than 4 miles. My usual route is a little over 3 miles. Sometimes I try hills or stairs or speedwork.

Recently my left knee starting feeling the same way my right knee used to hurt. UGH. So much frustration. I’ve also had Achilles pain. I’ve had issues with plantar fasciitis a few times.

Now the hip. Since I had Logan I’ve been having a lot of right hip pain. PT has only helped so much. This year has been particularly hard. The last few months have been really bad. The last month or two I’ve been going to the chiropractor almost weekly. Finally, I put in the heel lift I used to use in my shoe (not sure why I stopped using it??) and the relief was INSTANT. A lightbulb went off in my head. How dumb. Something SO SIMPLE. My pain level for my hip went from a 8 to a 4, immediately.

My doctor ordered X-rays of my hip and a special X-ray to measure leg length — apparently my left leg is 6 millimeters longer. Not sure if that’s super significant but apparently it’s just enough to throw everything off.

It’s been almost 3 weeks now and I haven’t been to the chiropractor, so that’s good. The next step: I went and got fitted for orthotic inserts. I put them in and again, the relief was instant. Not only did my hip no longer hurt AT ALL but my left knee no longer hurt either!!

I am really happy with the orthotics so far. I don’t know that it is a magical fix and it took about a week to get used to them but I am pretty happy with it fixing my aches and pains. So if you are experiencing anything like I have, considering getting your doctor to measure the length of your legs–or get orthotics.

Another quick update I wanted to give was about the Keto Diet, again. Since stopping keto, I’ve noticed that a few health issues I was having last year on the diet have disappeared. If you are doing keto or low carb and having issues, maybe this will help you.

One issue I was having was stomach issues. TMI, skip if you want, but I was having really bad stomach issues–the opposite of what I’ve always had. (A side effect of antidepressants is constipation, FYI.) I realized after some deductions that my horrible stomach issues were all the sugar-free products I was using on Keto! DUH. Clearly my body does not like sugar free chemicals.

The other issue I was having was hair loss. Like a lot. Like I would take a shower, wash my hair and clumps would fall out. It was so disturbing I was going to talk to my doctor. Well, that problem has also disappeared!

Anyways, hope some of this might help my readers!

Wedding Confession

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Last week I was having a hard time. I was hormonal, I was grumpy, I’d had a bad headache for several days, our dishwasher broke, our pantry was attacked by sugar ants, I’d been taking care of most things around the house because of Michael’s back, and just in the mix of all of that my knee had a flare up…something I hadn’t experienced in a long time and it was lingering. Whenever my knee acts up like that I get very depressed. Suddenly the idea of walking across the room seems like it’s miles long instead of a few feet.

During this time I was also doing a little stress eating. When I’m super stressed out I default to food. I wish I wasn’t that way. I wish I could turn off that default and not use food as the salve. A lot of the time I can use exercise instead–but when you’re injured and that’s not an option it’s easy to feel lost. What sucks is that it is NEVER RUNNING that gives me Runner’s Knee. It always seems to be something else. Why? Why!

The animals are pretty good at sensing when I’m upset or need some cuddles. Fat Kitty is always spot on. I was crying about my knee and he jumped on the bed and started sniffing my tears. Dork. But it made me laugh and that cheered me up a little. Bella did too:

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I was at work one day and had been partaking in treats from the Candy Room. I’d made three stops there in one day. Not good but at least one of those stops was just for chewing gum. The last stop was right before a meeting and I got about 1/2 a serving (maybe even less) of cashews to munch on. I kind of grumbled about visiting the candy stash too much that day and one of my coworkers said, “Are you going to be able to fit in your wedding dress?”

My first reaction was to think, THANK YOU. Thank you for slapping me in the face with that reality. The wedding is coming up, I’m anxious about a lot of stuff, my knee is CRANKY right now and I’m starting to stress out about my weight. Maybe this is the reality check that will scare me enough into being better with my food?

My next reaction was to feel deflated and sad. Like, yeah right that dress won’t fit now…And go through the typical cycle of negative self-talk — the “I’m so fat” and “Why can’t I lose weight” and “Why can’t I make better choices?” In that moment of self-pity and self-loathing I wrote about the interaction on Twitter. A very sweet blogger buddy of mine responded with this:

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Like my coworker’s insensitive joke, it was also a reality check. DUH. This wedding isn’t about the dress or the flowers or whether or not we serve fancy wedding cake (that doesn’t taste very good anyways). The wedding is about Michael and I celebrating our relationship and future together. It’s about JUST BEING ME because that’s who Michael proposed to. So why am I putting so much pressure on myself?

Karla also sent me a link to this article: Why We Need To Stop Talking About What Women Are Eating. It was a good article discussing a lot of topics around food, body image, weight loss and women’s self-esteem. I could relate to a lot of what was said. Here are two snippets:

“We all had to take health class but we didn’t learn A THING because all of us thought that skipping breakfast and eating Skittles for lunch was the way to stay thin, which A) didn’t work and B) made us dumb, because we were 14 years old and didn’t have any actual fuel to think. If I were teaching health class today, I’d do a special part where I’d say, “As teens, you shouldn’t feel like you have to diet, but let me be very clear: Not eating doesn’t make you skinny.” On repeat.”

“I think it also highlights just how quickly our body standards/ideals change — 15, 20 years ago, it was ALL ABOUT the heroin-chic super-skinny Kate Moss look. Now it’s all Pilates arms: You should look toned, but not TOO ripped, because then you’re scary Madonna. Such an impossible line to tread.”

I don’t know that the article made me feel any better but it was interesting. Anyways, this post doesn’t really have any wrap up or solution or easy answer. Still kinda feeling crappy about it! I keep repeating to myself that the wedding isn’t about how much I weigh and my knee will get better. Maybe one day soon I will believe it…