weight loss

2019 Goals & A Recipe

I have a few goals for the new year. NOT resolutions. The usual, of course: lose the weight. Yadda Yadda Yadda. I am working on a post about that that I will share at a later date. But for sure:

  1. Drink more water.
  2. Read 165 books.
  3. Eat more vegetables in my diet.
  4. Practice patience. 
  5. Learn how to alleviate stress/anxiety (without medication).

I think the first three goals are definitely doable. The last goal, I do not know if I can do. That’s part of the weight loss post I am working.

Drink more water — when I was breastfeeding I was doing SO GOOD at drinking water. Seriously, I was a rockstar. I had to be. To keep my supply up. But then once that was over with, I kinda got lazy. I am good at drinking water at work and I am good at drinking water at the gym. But at home? On the weekends? Not so much. I don’t know why I am so bad at it but I need to be better. I am noticing the effects of not drinking it and I need to fix that asap.

Read 165 books — that’s how many I read in 2018! I think my goal last year was 120 and I exceeded it! I am already off to a decent start.

Eat more veggies — I love vegetables, so that’s not too bad of a goal for me. However, when I snack, I usually reach for fruit. I am going to make a sincere effort to try and incorporate more veggies as snacks, too.

Patience — Logan is a joy for sure but we are definitely in a time period in his development that is challenging for all of us. He is almost three years old (!!!!!) and strong willed, determined and wants to do EVERYTHING himself. Which often takes forever. It can sometimes be very frustrating for me. We get into power struggles and I need to really work on patience and stopping the power struggles. 

What are your goals for the new year?

Now on to the recipe…

In an effort to eat more veggies AND try and satisfy that pizza craving without all the carbs, I experimented with zucchini pizzas last night! It actually turned out really well! We both liked it a lot. With some tweaking, I will make it again.

But first, for the funny little story — I got ready to make dinner and realized I had bought cucumbers instead of zucchinis (are you kidding me?!?!). I went to the store near our house (THEY WERE OUT!!) and had to go to ANOTHER grocery store. Sheesh.

Ok, so back home, I cute the ends off the zucchini, cut them in half, and then scraped the insides out to create “boats”. Next time I would make a little cute on the bottom so they would stay more flat on the tray.

Then I filled the indentations with the pizza sauce, pizza seasoning, cheese, topped it with pepperoni, olives and onions and a little more cheese. I baked it at 375 for about 20 minutes. Michael had a good idea to bake the zucchini naked for some of that time before doing all the toppings and then baking it the rest of the time. I will try that next time.

It was delicious and sort of satisfied the pizza craving, but not the bread craving. I would definitely make this again though!

Positive Thinking, Positive Change

I wanted to give an update about a post I wrote about medications and weight over the summer. Read that post for the background but the cliff notes version: I gained 10 pounds on a medication this summer.

I had a choice to make, try a different medication, or just keep going with prozac, which was working very well for my anxiety. I decided to give the buspar a chance per my doctor. I stopped the prozac and switched to the other one. Right off the bat, I was not a fan. It did absolutely nothing for my anxiety. I gave it over a month, waiting with white knuckles for it to finally kick in and start working…and nothing.

I was even having occasional panic attacks, which was not traditionally a component of my anxiety. So that was fun! I talked to my doctor and he increased the dosage. Within a few days of that, I started having really awful side effects. The biggest one was heart palpitations. Like constantly. It took me a few days to realize that the never ending heart palpitations might be because of the meds. I googled it and sure enough, “if you have this side effect, call your doctor immediately”. YAY! 🙁

So I stopped the buspar immediately and within a day or so the side effects were better and mostly gone. That’s the good news. The bad news? I was still in the same boat as I was before.

I went back on a low dose of the prozac and I am trying to manage my anxiety with mindfulness and a relaxation app I downloaded. The one I usually use is Breathe2RelaxI also use the Oak app. I like them and they work pretty well when I’m in the middle of an anxiety attack.

As for the weight I gained this summer…I am making good choices to lose it.

  1. No candy/dessert (which has been very hard with all the Halloween candy that’s EVERYWHERE!) but I am doing well with that so far.
  2. No alcohol Monday-Thursday and on Friday/Saturday nights I can have 1 drink (instead of my usual 2).
  3. Reminding myself it’s ok to be hungry sometimes.
  4. Taking the stairs at work. I go up and down between several floors multiple times a day and I’ve started using the stairs instead. It’s the little things that add up.
  5. I’m still working out my normal 5 days a week with 2 rest days.
  6. I’m counting my calories still but I am trying to actually create a deficit instead of eating back all of the calories in the gym.
  7. Weighing myself once a week. When I was in maintenance mode I was weighing once a month, or even less. If my clothes got tight, then I’d weigh myself, but I basically stuck at the same place.

The first week I lost almost 2 pounds. The second week I lost another pound. Over that weekend I wasn’t feeling 100% so I skipped drinking for the most part. I also didn’t have much of an appetite, so I think that helped jump start things.

As far as the mental aspect, I am doing well. My anxiety is “ok” and I’m feeling super focused on losing the weight. I am finding it easier to resist treats and things that are my downfall, so I think my mind is IN THE GAME on this.

Then Thanksgiving weekend hit–pie, wine, carbs…you know the drill. I didn’t weigh myself for 2 weeks and finally got back on the scale. This weekend I weighed myself after taking a few weeks off from the scale and was happy to see a few more pounds gone! I am now down a total of 7 pounds since October! WOOHOO!

I will keep you posted on my progress.