weight loss

Back in the Saddle Again

I started this post about a month ago and then life got nuts. So I am trying again. LOL

I took a month off from doing the keto diet. I honestly just COULD NOT deal with it while we in the middle of buying a house/moving, etc. It was so overwhelming I couldn’t mentally handle it.

Keto is a lot of work. I mean, once you get a handle on it and have a rotation of meals and snacks, you don’t really have to think about it TOO much but you still have to track everything and check everything to make sure your macros are correct and you are eating the correct amount of fat and low carb counts. So it takes a lot of mental energy. And I just couldn’t do it while I was doing everything else.

So I took a break. For about a month. (Honestly, back in the day when I lost 100+ pounds originally and just counted my calories, that was A LOT easier, you could eat whatever you wanted and just counted your calories, didn’t take a lot of mental energy or thought.) I ate whatever I want, not much different but I did eat carbs. And I enjoyed the hell outta ’em!

And my pants were tight.

So here I go again. I am back doing it and I won’t be taking a break (as far as I plan right now). We are going to Hawaii for my birthday and I’d love to lose some weight before our trip! That is my goal. I have 5 months! Let’s do this.

I recently found this Kombucha that is lower in carbs and sugar:

It’s about half of what a normal kombucha is. Awesome! So still not ideal but a treat once in awhile.

So at the end of July, I got back on the keto diet. I didn’t weigh myself but I knew I was back up. I’ve since weighed and I estimate that I’d gained about 4-6 pounds eating all the carbs. Maybe it was bloat? Who knows. But after a month or so back at it, my pants aren’t tight anymore. I will be weighing myself in a week to see if I’ve made some progress.

I definitely feel better when I do keto, even though it’s harder than just counting calories. Not eating a lot of sugar and carbs makes my body feel better. So even if I eventually go back to doing some kind of modified diet, it will be limiting the carbs and sugar.

This week I went to a naturopath doctor. I’ve been curious about it for awhile but didn’t want to spend the money. I know a lot of people that have had great experiences and even though I have no major complaints about my health care/doctor, I do feel dismissed about a lot of issues. For a few years now, I’ve felt really tired and worn down. I feel dismissed when I talk to my doctor about it. She says “Well, you’re almost 40” or “you have a toddler” or “you have a history of depression and anxiety”–none of which is A DIAGNOSIS. And I always leave feeling unheard, angry and lost. Blood tests are always in the “normal” range. Thyroid seems “fine.”

The good thing about a naturopath was that I felt HEARD. The appointment was over an hour (not 10 minutes or less like my doctor) and she listened to my history and complaints. She had some ideas and did a bunch of blood work (most was covered by my insurance thankfully because if it wasn’t I would not have afforded the visit! Naturalistic medicine is pricey!). I’ll have results in two weeks and a follow-up.

She said she was concerned about my insulin levels. And she said that some of my symptoms pointed to PCOS. So we will see what the tests show. I’m not 100% on board with the naturopathic way yet. We will see. But I’m willing to give it a TRY. I just want some answers, I want to try some things and see if anything works.

In the meantime, I am continuing keto. I will be re-evaluating some of my medications to see if they are necessary still (like my acne meds) and I think I might try going off some of them to see how I feel. (And see if I lose some weight as a result.)

Keto & Mindful Eating

Quick Progress Update

The diet is going well so far. I am losing weight, slow and steady. I am averaging a loss of about .8-1.2 pounds a week and while it’s not a huge loss each week like a lot of the keto websites and bloggers promise (I feel like they promise big losses to sell their meal plans maybe?) I am still losing and I am happy with that. I knew going in that it would probably be a slow process. When I lost weight the first time, it was a pretty slow process.

Thoughts on Weight Loss

Before I started Keto, I was struggling. After having Logan my body was out of whack. Pregnancy, breastfeeding, age, metabolism, lack of sleep, all of it…it all contributed to no weight loss. Add in medications that caused some weight gain and I was right back to where I started when I had Logan. I was feeling very disappointed and depressed. I was stressed out and frustrated that NOTHING worked. No matter what I did I didn’t see much of a change on the scale. I kept gaining and losing the same 3 or so pounds.

I was definitely getting into some unhealthy behaviors and unhealthy mental loops. I was getting VERY restrictive with my calories. I was already pretty low–1400 calories a day–and that was with working out. I was seeing food as the enemy. I was looking at meals as a negative equation: How could I cut more calories? Why wasn’t I losing any weight as I cut more and more?

It wasn’t a healthy place to be. And it sucked because back in the day when I was trying to lose over 100 pounds, I was never in that obsessive, negative, eating-disorder mindset.

If nothing else, doing the keto diet has shifted my mindset into a different realm. I’m no longer focusing on calories–which is a HUGE shift for me considering calories were what I focused on for the last 15 years.

Instead, I am focusing on macros and net carbs/fat. The calories are at the bottom of my priority list. I am still trying to stay within a range but I no longer feel anxiety if I am seeing in the MyFitnessPal app that I am over my calories for the day. It is no longer the focus.

I feel less stress and anxiety about all of that, so that’s a relief. Sometimes if I go over the net carbs for the day I do feel disappointed in myself but I try not beat myself up about it. It’s just one day and I usually don’t go that far over my goal.

When I am planning my meals and food for the day I focus on the macros and when I look at nutrients on food labels, I look at carb count first, and sometimes I don’t even look at the calorie count! SO weird! Especially for me!

I will be doing another weigh-in post and update in about two weeks.