Sep 272016

I don’t know what I did in the gym on Saturday morning but whatever it was, I was SO SORE on Sunday! I did a lot of the same weight lifting exercises I rotate in my gym days. There were some planks with leg lifts (maybe that was it?). Burpees and mountain climbers. And I did leg presses…nothing really out of the norm. But my glutes and hamstrings were so sore…like it hurt to sit down and stand up! I haven’t been this sore in a long time.


Of course, I didn’t feel sore until the next day so I didn’t do anything to preemptively ward off soreness (like an epsom salt bath). But isn’t that the way it usually works?

I did get some pampering in Saturday afternoon, though. I got a pedicure with a friend and the massage chair felt so good. Neither of us really wanted to leave…

Saturday evening Michael, Logan and I went out to dinner with some friends who are moving to Seattle soon. šŸ™ It’s a really great opportunity for them but it’s a bummer for us! We’re going to miss them. Seattle isn’t that far but it’s still kind of a trek going up there (especially with a baby now).



We went to Iron Horse in Sellwood. It’s one of our favorites. The food is always fantastic and unique and they have my favorite beer on tap! Boneyard Beer:


Michael got his usual– steak fajitas. I like to try something different every time we go because there are so many good options and their menu changes pretty frequently.

This time I got Sam’s Burrito. It’s your standard burrito with Spanish rice, pinto beans, sliced avocado and topped with pico de gallo and a spicy avocado sauce. There’s also pineapple salsa in it (which is what sold me on it in the first place). It comes with a side salad with orange and jicama on it. The salad was so delicious! It was light and summery and I loved the jicama on it.

Apparently the burrito was a vegan option. The waitress informed me of that (I thought it was just vegetarian) and she said “you can add some meat to it to un-veganize it”. LOL So I got shredded pork (so juicy) and sour cream. Definitely not vegan anymore. It was so tasty though! I loved the crunchy jicama and the sweet pineapple salsa. It would have been just fine had I left it as a vegan burrito, too.


I ate about 3/4 of the burrito (it was really big!) and Michael ate the rest.

Logan was doing super good at the restaurant and was so fascinated by our friend’s kids (they are almost 9 and 3 years old). He wanted to play with them so badly! It was pretty cute to watch.

We hung out for a bit but it was pretty loud. We decided to walk a few blocks to get ice cream at Dairy Queen. The kids were stoked (and so were the adults, honestly).


It was a nice evening and it was good to walk a little in the fresh Fall air. Sorry the pictures are a little blurry. I guess we were a little too excited about the dessert. LOL


We sat outside for a little bit and ate our ice cream and then it was time to head home. It was way past all the kid’s bedtimes and Logan was like “I’m out dude, I need to sleep!” and immediately fell asleep in his stroller.


We said our goodbyes (boo hoo) and made plans to see them when we go up to Seattle in December.

Sunday I got to sleep in a bit, which felt really nice, especially with how sore I felt. I went swimming (which felt really nice on my sore body) and then sat in the hot tub for awhile–which felt even better. Unfortunately I think it was too late to try and stave it off so I took some Advil, watched Netflix with Logan and used the heating pad. I can’t remember the last time I felt like this!

Finally, if you follow me on Instagram, you can see that Logan was trying to crawl this weekend!!

P.S. I was STILL SORE on Monday!!! What the heck did I do?!?!

Jul 062016

I knew that things would be different after.


1 Week Postpartum

Having lost 110 pounds — nearly 10 years ago — I had some loose skin on my stomach. It wasn’t too bad. I think a combination of being 25 years old when I started to lose the weight and the fact that it took me a year and a half to lose the weight made the skin “bounce back” a little easier. But I still had a little bit. It was something I was self-conscious about. Even at my skinniest (143 pounds) I never felt truly comfortable about my stomach. I wore a bikini in Hawaii and it was both scary and liberating but I was never 100% confident when I wore it. It was just the way it was.

Something happened when I got pregnant. I was no longer self-conscious about my stomach. As it grew I also grew to love it. It was something special and wonderful. Even during that in-between stage where I just looked kinda chubby and not quite pregnant yet, I still loved it.


Now that Logan is here, my body is mine again. Sort of! Things sure have changed and in a lot of ways it feels like my body is that of a stranger’s instead. My stomach is kind of oddly deflated right now. It’s not really about loose skin as much as just being “deflated”. It’s a bit weirdĀ and it feels like it’s not my body.


I’m definitely in-between in clothes. Nothing fits quite right. Part of that is the extra pounds and part of that is the deflated stomach issue. So maternity clothes are too big and baggy, my old clothes are too small, the clothes I wore in the early months of my pregnancy sort of fit but don’t look quite right either. Pre-pregnancy I was in a size medium for most shirts, now mediums don’t really fit but sometimes the large sized shirt is too big. I need a half size!

I recently decided to buy some new clothes. I just had to. Breastfeeding = I definitely needed new bras. I bought some new workout clothes that fit a little better. Had to buy a pair of jeans for work (pre-pregnancy I was a size 8, now I’m somewhere in between a 10 and 12 and of course neither size really fits well!). I bought a few pairs of capris, shorts and shirts. Some of them are in a size bigger than what I used to wear, some aren’t. I’m trying not to give the label too much mind, but I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t a bit disappointing.

It’s just weird not feeling quite yourself. šŸ™


15 weeks post partum

Another issue I’ve discovered is that postpartum healing takes time. I knew it would. But to be honest I “bounced back” pretty quickly at first and perhaps went back to some activities to soon? Who knows, hindsight and all that…but I’ve stopped running temporarily. Partially due to the flare-up of my back issues. I am disappointed for sure. I thought I was “Back to Normal” (normal???) and so it is frustrating to see my limitations.

Talking to my doctor about some of the general issues I’ve had she explained that breastfeeding does a number on your body that you just don’t realize. The big one? TheĀ ligaments are still loose like when you were pregnant. I did not know this. It’s funny–there are a zillion books, websites, blogs, etc about pregnancy and all the shit your body goes through giving birth but rarely do they ever REALLY discuss the aftermath. I know in our childbirth class she whizzed through the postpartum part in 30 minutes and didn’t cover any of the issues I had after giving birth (perfect example: hot flashes? Who knew that was a thing?!?! Thank goodness for Google.).

My doctorĀ said some of these issues I’ve been having won’t resolve until I stop breastfeeding (come on ligaments! Get back to normal!!). Again, I’m disappointed. I was really looking forward to getting back into running, running outside this summer, and running the two 5k’s I signed up for this fall. It was kind of crushing to realize that that might not happen and I just need to make peace with that and do what my body CAN do. I’m trying not to think about it, or put too much pressure on myself but it’s hard. I was so expecting this all to just happen naturally and I was healing really well and felt okay to get back into fitness.

In addition to my back flare-up I’ve noticed my IT band is inflamed. I haven’t had issues with my IT Band in years (thankfully my runner’s knee hasn’t returned–knock on wood). I am guessing this is related to breastfeeding and ligaments being looser.

So in a lot of ways I am feeling frustrated with my body.

I saw the physical therapist I was seeing last year for my back this week and she said that my back issue is entirely related to being pregnant. My core is gone. The repetitive issue of bending over to pick up the baby, not having core strength due to pregnancy just lead to a back strain. She thinks the IT band flare-up is also related to my core issues (and the breastfeeding thing) so basically it’s all just a “you had no core strength for almost a year injury”. She said that running probably didn’t help–because you DO use your core a lot for running. So I went back to running too soon and should have focused more on core strength in those early days of being back at the gym.

She also suggested I don’t do the ab machines at the gym (she said they are not good for the body), which I stopped doing once my back hurt. She gave me some PT exercises to strengthen my core and I’m hoping that I can try running again soon.


My new goal is to focus on strengthening my core and doing some low-impact activities. We used to go hiking every 4th of July–we didn’t this year–but I’m hoping we can start that soon. It’s a good, low impact activity we can do together.

I knew things would change, but it’s hard when you feel like you are “normal” and yet…you aren’t back to your normal yet. I keep forgetting that for nearly a year I had limitations!Ā So that’s what’s going on in my life right now…healing, strengthening and waiting!