Sharing Secrets

To me, having a blog means being totally honest and open. Readers don’t want to be lied to, or talked down to. I read other blogs and I enjoy reading ones that are honest. I enjoy the blogs I can relate to. In the spirit of that, I thought I’d share some weird things about myself that I probably wouldn’t normally share.

1. I went through a period of about 6 months where I would snack in the middle of the night. I never told anyone about it and was completely embarrassed I did that. I’d lost 80 pounds or so and was so close to my goal. I think it was part of sabotaging myself as I got closer to my goal. I’d wake up in the middle of the night and eat whatever sweets I had in the house.

2. I think about three things all the time: FOOD, BABIES, and VACATIONS. I could seriously spend hours fantasizing about those things. Mostly I think about the exotic food I would eat while ON vacation. 😉 And of course all the things I’d drink on vacation!

3. I’m a snacker. UGH I wish I could NOT graze. That’s my biggest downfall. While cooking, I “sample” the ingredients. Especially if I’m baking!

4. Reading through yesterday’s post about “Why can’t I lose weight?” , I realized I was falling sort on many of those things. The big one was drinking water. I’ve gotten better at drinking water but I’m not great and I KNOW I should drink more…so why don’t I?

5. One of my biggest fears is that I will somehow gain back everything I lost. I work hard not to let that happen, but that fear is still in the back on my mind.

(Updated to add:) 6. I am totally jealous of people that can eat whatever they want and NOT gain weight! I wish I was blessed with that ability….

QUESTION: What’s a secret you want to share?

#Fitblog Chat

Did you participate in the #fitblog chat on Twitter last night? It was a really good one and the questions were very thought-provoking for me.

Q1: Do you ever feel like you are alone in your fitness efforts? I workout alone for the most part, so I suppose I do feel alone in my fitness. However, I *always* had the support of family and friends. They were my own personal cheerleaders throughout the journey and I couldn’t have done it without them!

Q2: Could you be with someone who didn’t share your same fitness goals? A reader asked me yesterday if my boyfriend Michael has lost weight because of my weight loss…I can’t answer that for him but I can say what he told me. He said he’d never been super active until he met me. In fact, when we were “just friends” I never considered him a potential boyfriend because he said he didn’t like hiking. I LOVE hiking! But we fell in love and he’s become a very active guy. He hikes with me (and loves it). We bike together (and did Reach the Beach together). I love how active we’ve become with each other. So no, I probably couldn’t date someone who wasn’t active on some level.

Q3: Do you ever feel pressured to fall into those unhealthy habits at work or w/ a spouse/ a friend? Michael and I don’t always share the same opinions about what is healthy food. It takes a lot of compromising but we make it work. He loves pizza and could eat it every single day. Our compromise? Papa Murphy’s deLite pizza (165 calories a slice) instead of fattening thick-crust pizza.

Q4: How do you go about finding like minded people like workout partners/weight loss buddies in REAL LIFE? I am too shy to approach strangers at a gym. I’ve had people approach me in the swimming pool to talk about fitness, which was cool. I’d love to meet more people who are active. I suppose my blog was one way I thought that would happen! 🙂

QUESTION: How would you answer those questions?

On a side note, I was walking to Washington Park on my lunch hour today and saw THIS:

Looks like Operation Beautiful has made it to Oregon! 🙂 Ignoring the misspelling, it was cool to see and yes I AM beautiful!