Non-Scale Victories

Positive Thinking, Positive Change

I wanted to give an update about a post I wrote about medications and weight over the summer. Read that post for the background but the cliff notes version: I gained 10 pounds on a medication this summer.

I had a choice to make, try a different medication, or just keep going with prozac, which was working very well for my anxiety. I decided to give the buspar a chance per my doctor. I stopped the prozac and switched to the other one. Right off the bat, I was not a fan. It did absolutely nothing for my anxiety. I gave it over a month, waiting with white knuckles for it to finally kick in and start working…and nothing.

I was even having occasional panic attacks, which was not traditionally a component of my anxiety. So that was fun! I talked to my doctor and he increased the dosage. Within a few days of that, I started having really awful side effects. The biggest one was heart palpitations. Like constantly. It took me a few days to realize that the never ending heart palpitations might be because of the meds. I googled it and sure enough, “if you have this side effect, call your doctor immediately”. YAY! 🙁

So I stopped the buspar immediately and within a day or so the side effects were better and mostly gone. That’s the good news. The bad news? I was still in the same boat as I was before.

I went back on a low dose of the prozac and I am trying to manage my anxiety with mindfulness and a relaxation app I downloaded. The one I usually use is Breathe2RelaxI also use the Oak app. I like them and they work pretty well when I’m in the middle of an anxiety attack.

As for the weight I gained this summer…I am making good choices to lose it.

  1. No candy/dessert (which has been very hard with all the Halloween candy that’s EVERYWHERE!) but I am doing well with that so far.
  2. No alcohol Monday-Thursday and on Friday/Saturday nights I can have 1 drink (instead of my usual 2).
  3. Reminding myself it’s ok to be hungry sometimes.
  4. Taking the stairs at work. I go up and down between several floors multiple times a day and I’ve started using the stairs instead. It’s the little things that add up.
  5. I’m still working out my normal 5 days a week with 2 rest days.
  6. I’m counting my calories still but I am trying to actually create a deficit instead of eating back all of the calories in the gym.
  7. Weighing myself once a week. When I was in maintenance mode I was weighing once a month, or even less. If my clothes got tight, then I’d weigh myself, but I basically stuck at the same place.

The first week I lost almost 2 pounds. The second week I lost another pound. Over that weekend I wasn’t feeling 100% so I skipped drinking for the most part. I also didn’t have much of an appetite, so I think that helped jump start things.

As far as the mental aspect, I am doing well. My anxiety is “ok” and I’m feeling super focused on losing the weight. I am finding it easier to resist treats and things that are my downfall, so I think my mind is IN THE GAME on this.

Then Thanksgiving weekend hit–pie, wine, carbs…you know the drill. I didn’t weigh myself for 2 weeks and finally got back on the scale. This weekend I weighed myself after taking a few weeks off from the scale and was happy to see a few more pounds gone! I am now down a total of 7 pounds since October! WOOHOO!

I will keep you posted on my progress.

New Year, New Goals

The older I get, the less I am interested in New Year’s Resolutions. I like making lists, I like having goals. I definitely set personal goals for myself and the new year seems like a good time to reflect on those. But I also feel like New Year’s Resolutions are a way to set people up for high expectations and disappointment if we don’t meet those goals (right away!!).

New Year’s Resolutions have been synonymus with weight loss goals. I am still trying to lose the baby weight, and who knows, I may be fighting that fight for awhile! But I am making slow progress on that and at least moving in the right direction.

I’ve said it a few times, but the low carb diet is not a diet for me. It’s too hard for me to maintain for very long. It’s definitely difficult with my workout schedule. I see a big difference in my energy levels when I run during low carb days. It’s HARD.

With that being said, I am not going to swear it off entirely. I think it might be a good way, short term, to jump start weight loss after plateaus. So I will probably try it again in the future, but I will not be beating myself up when I can’t continue the diet for long term. I am ok with that.

One thing I did learn with the low carb diet attempts in 2017, cutting out SUGAR made the bigger difference on the scale for me. IF there is one New Year’s Resolution goal that I might be focusing on, it’s trying to cut out sugar!

2017 was a really hard year for me personally. There was a lot of heavy, hard stuff that happened that weighed on me for a long time. My hope is that 2018 will be a better year for me and my family.

I want to be a better person. I want to be happier with where I am in my life, what size clothes I wear, etc. I want to focus less on things that don’t really matter. I want to be better at self-care and resting when I need to. I want to drink more water. 

We have a few vacations and road trips that we’ve planned. I am really looking forward to those. I’m excited about showing Logan different things and now that he’s getting older and can participate more, it will be fun to make family memories!

Some things I’ve already started:

I started 2018 off right with a workout on New Year’s Day. 😀

A few months ago, Michael and I started a tradition of family dinners at the dining room table Monday-Thursday nights. No TV, no phones, just family time. It’s going well and I am happy that we are doing that.

I’ve been toying with the idea of ending this blog and perhaps starting one entirely dedicated to book reviews. I don’t know if I will, but it’s a thought I’ve had for awhile. Stay tuned. 😉

QUESTION: Do you have any goals for the new year?