Take Aways

Thank you all for the comments and feedback on my Diet Culture post. I think it resonated with a lot of people and more and more I am seeing things on social media about people kind of being “over it.” Over the constant “THINKING” about food and calories and portions and dieting. An instagram friend I’ve followed for years posted recently that she was burned out on it and has been doing Weight Watchers since like the 5th grade. One comment on my post, from Beth, said keto “consumed a lot of brain space” and that is exactly how it felt.

What have I been doing since I quit? A lot of stuff actually. I’m back to just counting calories and watching my portions but not going crazy. I’m not tracking carbs, not worrying about carbs too much. Just doing what worked before.

One thing I did, was I un-synched my Garmin to MyFitnessPal. I think part of my problem has been *thinking* I was doing good creating a deficit but not really doing it. I’d see that I had all these “Extra” calories in my app for the day and I’d think, It’s okay to eat a little bit more. So unpairing the two apps means I don’t see the calories I burn. And now my focus is just on keeping in my range (1400-1500 calories a day).

This has helped me a lot. When I reach that number for the day, I’m done. There are days I eat more. But I don’t worry about it. I’m not hungry. I do not feel like I am starving myself. I do not have intense cravings because I am depriving myself any foods. On days I AM a little extra hungry, I just eat a snack! And it’s ok.

The other thing that has happened is that I no longer associate exercise with “I need to work off ___ food”. Not that I thought of exercise as punishment. I love exercising, it’s a good stress reliever for me and makes me feel good. But there are definitely days when I am not feeling it but did anyways because of eating ____. I think we’ve all been there. Anyways, now I just exercise because I want to, when I want to.

One of the other take aways from doing keto, that is NOT negative, is that Fat Is Good. Eating healthy fats like avocado, nuts (my favorites are cashews, macadamia nuts and walnuts), olive and avocado oil, olives, etc. That stuff is good for your body, good for your brain AND makes you feel fuller.

But the more I think about it, the older I get, the more stressful life gets in general, the more 2020 throws at us…the less mental space I have for all of that stuff. Is it important? I don’t know. I am trying to be healthy. I am trying to keep my portions in control. I am still exercising. I just don’t want my entire LIFE consumed by how many calories I can eat, how many carbs I’ve had, calculating NET CARBS all day long. It is just not healthy for my mental health.

Am I happy with my current weight and body? Nope. But I am trying to make peace with it, work on it, keep doing what I am doing.

I’ve been following a lot of body positive, positive eating, sustainability, eco-positive people on Instagram recently and it’s been giving me a lot to think about. (If you guys are interested, I can provide links and names for some of my favorites.)

It’s really made me wonder how much of my journey was healthy? I lost weight in the healthiest way possible. I didn’t crash diet, I changed my lifestyle, I retrained my brain and eating habits and chose healthier options. I maintained my weight for over 10 years doing healthy things. But was it 100% healthy? Or were there things that were a little questionable? Like being so strict with my workout schedule, never deviating, feeling stressed if I was injured or sick and had to take time off. Was I healthy if I was doing keto and being super restrictive? Did I mess up metabolism for good by limiting my calories for so long? I have a lot of questions. Lots and lots of questions…

December Keto

I got a new protein powder, that actually tastes really good! I got the Orgain Keto protein powder. It has collagen, MCT oil in it and no net carbs. I mix it up in a blender with water and some frozen blueberries. One scoop is 90 calories.

Speaking of MCT Oil…On days I don’t do protein shakes (you don’t want TOO much MCT oil in one day or your tummy will not be happy!) I put one scoop in my coffee. I switched to the powdered MCT Oil because the oil was just kinda gross. It didn’t mix well, it made my throat itchy and I didn’t like the texture. But the powder mixes really well in coffee. This is the brand I use: MCT Oil Powder.

White Lazy Lasagna – Delicious! Would definitely make it again. It falls apart when you dish it up, hence, no picture. 🙂 The only thing we’d change next time would be to do half ground turkey and half italian sausage. Michael also added red pepper flakes and Italian Seasoning, which was a good call. (I also read the recipe wrong and only used 1/2 of the jar of the alfredo sauce. But honestly, I think it was better with less liquid, so FYI.)

I kinda went off the planned schedule for December. Except for the week of Christmas when I fell off the wagon (boo!) I was mostly on the diet for the month of December but we basically did our usually rotation of easy keto dinners. There was just a lot going on with the holidays and it was harder than we thought to try new recipes. Which was fine.

As far as progress, the Christmas week undid some of my progress, which is a bummer. Not that I went crazy. I was mostly on plan except for dessert on Christmas Eve (we got a lot of Christmas cookies that week from our new neighbors and they were really hard for me to resist!) and then Christmas Day and the day after Christmas I just ate whatever I wanted. I haven’t weighed myself. I just wanted to wait to get back to my normal eating habits before getting too upset with whatever I saw on the scale (i.e. Christmas Cookie Damage).

For Christmas, Michael usually gives me a big bag of chocolate M&Ms in my stocking. This year he got me some fancy new Keto chocolates from Costco and some assorted almonds. So that’s nice! My brother also got me a package of ChocZero Keto Bark !

My goal was to lose some weight before our trip to Hawaii in January. I don’t think I’m going to quite make that goal but I am going to keep trying!