Resolutions

2020

The start of a new decade. As I look back, I think of all of the stuff I did and all the things I accomplished and think “wow.” It was a lot!

I started this blog. I made a lot of friends online through blogging and Twitter. I am grateful for that. It was nice to have a “community.” I maintained my weight loss of 110 pounds for over 10 years.

I was on the cover of a magazine! And on the local news. My 15 minutes of fame. LOL

Michael and I did a TON of traveling! Something I definitely miss. Having kids means that changes, for sure. We still travel but it looks differently. But pre-Logan, we went to Texas a few times (Austin was great!), Vegas a few times, Tucson twice, California, Hawaii twice…so many fun trips.

We did a lot of activities together, too. I ran a bunch of races–half a dozen 5ks, a 10k, Hood To Coast. We biked a lot of events together (Reach the Beach and the Portland Century). You can read about the different events here.

We got a dog! Welcome to the family, Bella! Bella has been a gift to our family. I can’t imagine our life without her. She’s the best dog ever. She’s the best cuddler. πŸ˜€ She’s just so happy and sweet.

We got engaged and married. And went to Maui for our honeymoon. That was such a magical time!

I got pregnant and we had Logan:

It’s crazy how different our life is after having a baby. It really does change everything. But like with Bella, I can’t imagine NOT having Logan in our life. Both are a blessing.

Logan was a fairly easy baby with a sweet disposition and a goofy laugh. He loved everything and everyone and was curious and energetic. He grew into a curious and energetic toddler. And now, in 2020 he’s going to turn 4 years old (crazy!) and he’s smart and stubborn and inquisitive and opinionated.

In sad news, I said goodbye to my beloved kitty of 15 years. It was one of the hardest, saddest things I’ve ever done and the grief was real. I cried for months. It took almost a year and a half before I was able to even think about another cat.

In 2018 we welcomed Stevie to our family:

Stevie fit right into our family immediately like he always belonged there. He loves everyone and particularly loves cuddling with Bella! It’s so cute. πŸ™‚

In 2019, Logan and I both had surgery. I had sinus surgery (which has helped me a lot!) and Logan got tubes put in his ears. While both were good things, it added to the stress of 2019 in particular. Healing in general is difficult.

We bought a new house in 2019. Packed up our old house, finished the remodeling projects, moved into our new house, put our house on the market….

And after a VERY stressful summer, our old house SOLD! What a relief! A huge weight off our shoulders. We could finally relax and enjoy our new house and get settled without worrying about the old house selling.

As I sit down and think about the last decade of my life I think “pheww! that was a lot of stuff!” And it was, a lot of big life stuff. Big “adult” stuff. To say that it’s been a lot would be an understatement.

When I think about the new year and what I want to accomplish, my goals are simple. Yes, I am still trying to lose weight. I still have 20 or so pounds to lose. I’ve struggled with my depression and anxiety and medication management. I have been gaining and losing the same 10 pounds since I had Logan. It’s frustrating. So I am hoping that 2020 is the year I end that cycle.

I’d also like to work on being more kind to myself. I often feel like a failure when I don’t reach my goals in a specific time frame, even if they aren’t realistic. Patience is not my forte.

I’d also like to build more me time and more family time/downtime into our schedule. We tend to be very booked and it can get stressful and overwhelming. I miss doing fun stuff on the weekends and going out of town for little getaways. I’d like to do that more.

QUESTION: What were the big highlights of your decade? Any New Year’s Resolutions?

New Year, New Goals

The older I get, the less I am interested in New Year’s Resolutions.Β I like making lists, I like having goals. I definitely set personal goals for myself and the new year seems like a good time to reflect on those. But I also feel like New Year’s Resolutions are a way to set people up for high expectations and disappointment if we don’t meet those goals (right away!!).

New Year’s Resolutions have beenΒ synonymus with weight loss goals. I am still trying to lose the baby weight, and who knows, I may be fighting that fight for awhile! But I am making slow progress on that and at least moving in the right direction.

I’ve said it a few times, but the low carb diet is not a diet for me. It’s too hard for me to maintain for very long. It’s definitely difficult with my workout schedule. I see a big difference in my energy levels when I run during low carb days. It’s HARD.

With that being said, I am not going to swear it off entirely. I think it might be a good way, short term, to jump start weight loss after plateaus. So I will probably try it again in the future, but I will not be beating myself up when I can’t continue the diet for long term. I am ok with that.

One thing I did learn with the low carb diet attempts in 2017, cutting out SUGAR made the bigger difference on the scale for me. IF there is one New Year’s Resolution goal that I might be focusing on, it’s trying to cut out sugar!

2017 was a really hard year for me personally. There was a lot of heavy, hard stuff that happened that weighed on me for a long time.Β My hope is that 2018 will be a better year for me and my family.

I want to be a better person. I want to be happier with where I am in my life, what size clothes I wear, etc. I want to focus less on things that don’t really matter. I want to be better at self-care and resting when I need to. I want to drink more water.Β 

We have a few vacations and road trips that we’ve planned. I am really looking forward to those. I’m excited about showing Logan different things and now that he’s getting older and can participate more, it will be fun to make family memories!

Some things I’ve already started:

I started 2018 off right with a workout on New Year’s Day. πŸ˜€

A few months ago, Michael and I started a tradition of family dinners at the dining room table Monday-Thursday nights. No TV, no phones, just family time. It’s going well and I am happy that we are doing that.

I’ve been toying with the idea of ending this blog and perhaps starting one entirely dedicated to book reviews. I don’t know if I will, but it’s a thought I’ve had for awhile. Stay tuned. πŸ˜‰

QUESTION: Do you have any goals for the new year?