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Lisa Eirene

About Lisa Eirene Lisa lost 110 pounds through calorie counting and exercise. She swims, bikes, runs, hikes and is enjoying life in Portland, Oregon. Her weight loss story has been featured in First Magazine, Yahoo Health, Woman's Day and Glamour.com.

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  1. Tiff @ Love Sweat and Beers

    I probably have too many shameful food memories to mention, but I hear ya on the candy. Since candy isn’t my fav treat, I can usually resist it okay. However, once I get started (especially with Reece’s pieces and M&Ms) there’s no stopping. I can’t and don’t keep the stuff in the house.

    1. Lisa Eirene

      I do my best to not keep that stuff in the house either. If I want candy in the house I only bring home a few. It keeps the potential damage to a minimum.

  2. Beth @ Beth's Journey

    I struggle with that all or nothing mentality all the time. Timely as could be, this week’s meeting topic for WW is “Tricks, not Treats” with tips for navigating through the holiday season!

    1. Lisa Eirene

      I eat treats but I try to limit the amount I eat. I’d rather have ONE “fun size” candy and enjoy it than eat TONS or NONE.

  3. Jenny

    I have a vivid memory of crying at the dinner table when I was 9 or 10 because I was the only one still sitting there working on my third helping of mashed potatoes. It’s one of my earliest memories of realizing I was fat/ate more than my siblings. It doesn’t bother me anymore and I can still eat mashed potatoes (but I don’t…because they’re potatoes), but the memory is so strong that I remember exactly what it felt like to sit there and suddenly have all of these realizations about myself.

    1. Lisa Eirene

      That’s a pretty powerful memory. And I imagine it was devastating having that realization at such a young age. It took me a lot longer to realize that I ate more than most people around me. Thanks for sharing Jenny!

  4. Sara

    Ugh alcohol is totally my “fat medicine”! Every time, regardless of how much I have, whether it is within my daily points/calories/etc I tend to still beat myself up about it. Just this past weekend I had a rough ride and wanted a drink…that drink turned into 4 which resulted in too much food consumed. While I had a blast with my friends, I can’t help but regret losing control. I know it’s not like I do this often, heck this is the first time I’ve had a drink for over a month and I typically don’t go nuts-o with food…but no matter how many times I know it’s OK to have a drink and once in a while eat like that I can’t really get past the mental frustration with myself. Maybe we all just have something that triggers those intense feelings about our past selves that we knew to be one of the most destructive habits to our bodies and minds that takes a lot longer, if at all, to get over.

    1. Lisa Eirene

      I understand that! Alcohol is a tough one because it DOES make you eat more. You have a few drinks and think “screw it! I’m eating FRIES!” Ooops. It’s hard to be strong then.

  5. Lori

    It’s funny, I never really got shamed with food because I did a lot of secret eating. Comments to me were always about my body, which was horrible. I have a pretty good relationship with food now, but it took a while to feel like it was okay to eat certain types of food in public without feeling like I wasn’t supposed to be eating them.

    1. Lisa Eirene

      SECRET EATING! Yes! I hid a lot of my eating too. Especially the candy. I’d hide that in my room and eat it without people seeing me.

  6. Jill

    My father would always puff out his cheeks at me when I would eat. Even at meal times if I had seconds.. there he would be at the head of the table puffing his cheeks out at me. I still think of this sometimes when I am eating an indulgence. I can still feel the feelings that I felt back them. The shame. I try my best to just put it out of my mind. The other shaming memory I have is my brother singing to me “Fat People Got No Reason” to the tune of “Short People” by Randy Newman. I am 41 now and should not let these things bother me, but they are still a part of who I am today.

    1. Lisa Eirene

      Wow, Jill. Thanks for sharing that memory. That’s a really hurtful way. I know your dad and bro were probably just teasing–that’s kind of the way dads and brothers were. But it’s still hurtful.

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