in a funk

Funks and Ruts and New Beginnings

It’s been no secret I’ve been in a funk, probably since October but if I was entirely honest I’d say it started when Michael got laid off a year and a half ago. That was a tough 10 months but we got through it and his new job (since last September) is going great!

I recently said I got a temporary promotion at my job. I have to say it’s a lot of mixed emotions. 1) I’m stressed because I’m doing something new and I want to do a good job. 2) I felt an instant sense of relief stepping away from my previous job duties and responsibilities. 3) My new job has renewed my passion for what I do. I LIKE what I do again!

It’s a good feeling to not have dread. But since I’m still learning and feeling very fish-on-dry-land, I’ve come home feeling like a sloth. I still worked out but the second I got home I sat in front of the TV. For hours. And I definitely did some stress eating.

Weight Lifting & Running 3/4 mile
Weight Lifting & Running 3/4 mile

My dinners have been healthy and portion controlled. One night we had blackened salmon with steamed broccoli and raw peppers. The next night I made honey mustard chicken breasts and ate half the breast with satueed squash from the yard and more peppers. All healthy! Both meals between 500-600 calories total.

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The after dinner snacking was not great. Friends brought ice cream to our 4th of July BBQ and left 3 cartons in our freezer. Sigh. One is Butterfingers (my effing favorite AND a trigger food for me). Michael bought a 5 pound bag of Gummy Bears from Costco. At least I only like the red ones….

Needless to say, temptations abound in my house. Not only are there temptations to eat but the temptation to sit and veg in front of the TV has pretty much been given in to these past few weeks. My reasons are above, Michael’s reasons are cycling. He’s biking to work every day and doing over 100 miles a week. I think his last update for the year was at 1100 miles total so far for 2013. Wow! So I get why he’s tired. 🙂

Friday night came and instead of going home and sitting in front of the TV I suggested we have a date night the cheap way. I went to my yoga class and then came home, cleaned up, and we got dinner to go from New Seasons Market in Sellwood.


They have a sandwich bar, kind of like Subway, but upscale and fancier. You get a checklist of what you want on your sandwich and basically build your own. They make it for you and wrap it up nicely and then you can go. The sandwiches are really good, too. I was surprised at the good quality, and much better than Subway! They also have lots of options; so Michael got his sandwich on a gluten free bun and I got mine on a regular ciabatta roll. We both got smoked turkey and havarti cheese, but Michael got bacon on his and I got chipotle mayo with grilled onions and Mama Lil’s Peppers. SO GOOD!


Don’t notice my pale white leg in the photo! We went to the Sellwood Waterfront Park that I’ve biked past a million times on my way to and from work. It’s right near the Springwater trail with a view of the Sellwood Bridge and downtown Portland. There’s also a free, off-leash dog park and there were tons of cute dogs playing in the park.


We sat on a grassy knoll overlooking the water and ate our sandwiches for dinner, enjoying the sunset over the hills. I tried a new drink, too:


I was never a fan of coconut water. I WANTED to like it, especially back in the days when I was running a lot. It seemed like a healthier option than gatorade but no matter how much I tried, I hated it. I’m glad I gave this stuff a second chance because I liked it a lot. It was Kevita Sparkling Probiotic Drink with mango and coconut and I think it was only 20 calories for the bottle. It was like a sparkling water slightly flavored with mango and coconut. I’d definitely drink it again.

After our sandwiches we had dessert. Michael had half of his gluten-free brownie and I had half of my real brownie. It was pretty good but I make better brownies. 😉


We cleaned up our picnic and walked down to the beach and docks. The sun was setting and it was getting cooler. The mosquitos and gnats were coming out, too. We watched the sun set, lounged on a park bench for a bit and then headed home.

It was a nice, cheap, lower-calorie option for a date night than going to a restaurant. I definitely want to do it again because it was just really nice to be outside in good weather! It was peaceful and relaxing by the water. And it definitely got us out of our rut!

Getting Funky at Nordstrom Rack

Yesterday I was in a bit of a funk…actually Monday AND Tuesday I was in a funk.

As I revealed in today’s post about my workout my progress with the IT Band issue slowed a bit. I was feeling frustrated, sad about my body and injuries, PLUS I was hormonal.

What I wanted? A 3 hour massage, chocolate cheesecake, pizza, a cure for my insomnia, lots of wine and a winning lottery ticket. And I whined in my head about all of those things!

Instead of eating everything in sight and totally derailing from my “Do Not Gail Weight Over The Holidays” plan, I decided to do something else:

Retail Therapy.

I recently purchased a Groupon for the Rack. $25 for $50! Score!

I had a list of things I wanted (new heels to match my NYE dress, new boots, a jacket, a dress…) but I had to shop smart because I wasn’t spending more than the Groupon.

I decided that shopping for clothes during “That Time” is a bad idea. Talk about a mood crusher! Plus I’m probably 5 pounds heavier just from water retention.

I hated everything I tried on. Nothing fit right. Hate the dresses!

Everything hung wrong. Accentuated bulges. I looked thick in all the wrong places.

Instead of noticing nice curves and muscles that I’m usually proud of, I fixated on big hips, lumpy fitting clothes and sagging body parts. Did I focus on the successes I’ve had? No. Did I remind myself that it wasn’t too long ago I didn’t fit into anything at The Rack? Nope. I just fixated on the negative. UGH! This was NOT helping my funk.

I did find two jackets I liked. 2 years ago I started a search for a cream colored wool jacket. I never found one in my budget and then I saw this at The Rack:

I found something I liked! That looked good! I tried on a Medium–which fit everywhere perfect except for my big Swimmer’s Shoulders. Boo. That meant I had to try a Large.

Then the never-ending debate with myself “Do I get the short jacket? Or the long jacket?”

Another random fact: during That Time I become the most INDECISIVE person on the planet. I cannot make a decision to save my life–which is very bizarre for me! I consulted with Michael via text (hence these awful iPhone photos) and we both liked the longer jacket.

Originally $89, I got it for $39! Plus a new bra. Total= $54 – $50 Groupon = $4. 🙂 That cheered me up. I scored a good sale.

I went to the gym after work and that made me feel a LOT better. Exercise really does cure a cranky mood.

Today I had a dentist appointment to get my permanent crown. I had some time to kill before that so I woke up at my normal time and went to the pool. I almost never workout in the mornings during the week because it’s really hard for me to wake up early.

Since I didn’t have a time crunch to get to work by 8, I was successful with my AM Workout! I got to the pool and was in the water by 6:25am (oy). The pool was packed too. I was surprised. I guess a lot of people try to workout before work.

The good news was that by 6:45 the pool was empty. I had the lane to myself and enjoyed the rest of my swim by myself. I felt fantastic. I even had time to relax in the hot tub.

I was able to get my flu shot, run an errand and then made it to my dentist appointment. It was such a nice change having my workout done in the morning. I didn’t have to worry about rushing to the gym right after work. I just wish I could do that every day…

QUESTION: How do you get yourself out of a funk? Are you a morning person?