struggles with food

The Ax

I’m not sure if I mentioned it, but I’ve been trying to get back to running. Last week I ran 1 very sloooow mile on the treadmill with one walking break. The other night I had some time to kill before Spin class, so I hopped on the treadmill again. This time I ran a slightly faster 1 mile with no walking break. It will be a slow process getting back my running legs, but I hope this time it sticks.

The Spin class was a challenge. It was a lot of really challenging seated climbs and a few standing climbs (which I prefer). The instructor said the resistance should be “8 out of 10” in difficulty. My legs held up but it was difficult! My legs kept moving but it was a slow climb. Maybe I pushed it too much but my knee hurt a bit after the class. Maybe “8 out of 10” isn’t quite appropriate for a girl with knee issues. Lesson learned.

Gym Stats:
Time: 1:31
Calories Burned: 643

Do you remember my quest for finding the perfect post-workout snack to prevent crashing? I’ve been eating Apricots for awhile now and it’s worked really well! Eating just a few of them right after I workout gets me through the drive home before I can eat dinner. It’s prevented crashes or crankiness and I feel like it’s something more natural I can eat.

I got home from the gym and Michael had made us dinner. It was the rest of our Brussels sprouts, Israeli couscous and chicken thighs. I ate one chicken thigh because it was a lot of food.

I also had a glass of Pinot Grigio with dinner. It was a crisp, tart wine and I liked it a lot. Now for the latest news…


A few months ago Michael got word that he might lose his job. It wasn’t for sure. Needless to say we’ve been living under a cloud of stress and anxiety and worry for awhile now. In December he got the word that it was more of a reality. He was convinced that come January his job would be gone. I chose to try and think positive (aka live in denial) up until the very day. Unfortunately, my positive vibes and desperate hope were all for nothing. We are now down to one income.

It sucks. It’s stressful. I know that whatever stress and anxiety I am feeling, Michael is feeling it a million times worse. I hope that this turns out to be for the best and something even better comes into his life. I do believe that things happen for a reason and every difficult thing I’ve gone through has made me stronger and given me better opportunities. I hope that is the same for Michael.

Lots of things will be changing. We’re tightening our belts. We’ll probably stop eating out at restaurants for awhile (we do have some Groupon deals we have to use up first). Our meals will be simpler and using the things we have in our pantry and freezer. The new addition to our family that we’d wanted in 2012 will probably have to wait. Things will be up in the air for awhile.

Thank you all for the comments in support of yesterday’s post. I may be a long time weight loss maintainer, but the struggles are still there.  So that’s the news. I’m trying to think positive about better opportunities for both of us.

QUESTION: Have you had to deal with a spouse or partner’s job loss? What got you through the tough times? Any tips on how to be extra supportive?