Repost: Why I Run the Waterfront

Dear Waterfront Esplanade,

I really miss you a lot. It’s been months since I’ve been able to run your loop during my lunch break. The last time I ran you, I beat my own PR on August 23rd. A week before I ran Hood to Coast.

You were an excellent place to train for my Big Race. You were a fixed route with a fixed mileage and I was able to focus on my speed work. I had landmarks to gauge myself by and I knew the route by heart. The cracks in the sidewalk. The slippery (when wet) parts of the bridges. The hills. The stairs. The narrow parts that get congested.


Since my injury, I’ve been relegated to jogging short distances on the treadmill. It doesn’t feel right. It doesn’t feel like home to me. Did I mention I miss you a lot?

I’ve been avoiding the Waterfront lately because I can’t run it. I’m sorry about that. It was just too hard to see you when I couldn’t run on you.

The other day the weather was beautiful in Portland. I went for my walk (the norm now) at lunch instead of running (like before). The sun was out. The weather was warm. I put in my earphones and decided to walk the Esplanade.

Eminem’s “Lose Yourself” comes on my iPod. I’m being passed by runners left and right. As I lose myself in the song, a song that would often pump me up on my runs, I almost start to run. I almost lose myself in the moment, in the muscle memory, in the old habit of Running You and then I stop.


I remember I’m wearing jeans and a blouse–not running gear. I remember I’m not running yet. I remember that I have to take it slow. I’m sorry I ever dreaded running you, or felt like running you was a chore. I’d give anything to be able to do it now!

As I was walking, I crossed paths with my friend Kristin. She was running and she looked great! I smiled and waved even though I was feeling sad.

I hope that someday I can run you again.



(The rest of this was written months ago, pre-injury.)

One of the good things about running the Esplanade is that you’re pretty much stuck once you’re on the other side of the river. You have a choice of either turning around to get back, or keep going forward. Either way you can’t just decide to quit like you can on a treadmill.

The beautiful scenery also keeps me coming back. The Waterfront reminds me daily how gorgeous Portland is.

The river is beautiful, the trees lining the Esplanade are always blooming (or turning colors). Plus I can see Mt. Hood on a clear day.

Running the same route on a regular basis also means I saw the same people. I saw good runners and admired their speed and form. I saw bad runners with horrible form. I saw current coworkers and old coworkers.

QUESTION: What is something you miss right now, for any reason?

Why Wednesday – Why I’m Not Losing

When I first lost 100 pounds the lowest my weight ever got to was 143. Unfortunately I didn’t stay there long. I think I weighed 143 for about one month and hovered between 144-146 for four months. Then I started taking Celexa and gained 15 pounds.

After stopping the Celexa and starting to lose those 15 pounds again I finally returned to the pre-gain weight of the mid-140’s. Once again, I got down to 143 but did not stay there long. A month later I was back to 144.

It seems to me that I can never break through that 143 barrier. Don’t ask me WHY I want to weigh 140. There’s no specific reason other than it being a whole number. But no matter what I do I can’t seem to get there.

I’ve written a little about this before: Why Can’t I Lose Weight? And Why Do People Cheat? I’ve also mentioned before that while it would be nice to weigh in at 140, it’s not the end of the world if I don’t. I’d rather be able to maintain my current weight for as long as I can, while I still enjoy my favorite treats.

I was chatting with a friend of mine who has done Weight Watchers for a long time. She thought I wasn’t eating enough food on days I work out and my body was in “starvation mode.”


My base number of calories a day is 1570 plus whatever I burn working out. I gave her an example of my estimated calories for a few days:

Monday: 1827 (w/ 180 burned)

Sunday:  2058 (w/ 411 burned)

Thursday: 2046 (w/ 90 burned)

Wednesday: 1933 (w/745 burned)
Her response: At WW you’d have 1450 a day without exercise. Add 200 or a day depending on the exercise. Then add another 2450 spread out through out the week and you should be eating 2000 a day on the days you work out. There was only one day that you almost hit 2000.  That could be the reason why you’re not losing.  You’re not eating enough on the days you work out.

She also suggested that I eat more protein and fiber. This is a goal I can get behind. I’ve been trying to eat more protein and fiber for awhile now.

So now I’m wondering if I should switch things up on days I workout. I was pretty satisfied with my food lately (minus the snacking) but if it’s not working I am willing to experiment a bit.

Michael’s suggestion was to workout less because muscle weighs more. Not an option for me! Maybe eating more protein will work. My friend also suggested that perhaps my body will never get under 144. That this is the weight it is happy at.

Michael and I already eat (what I thought was a lot) a lot of protein: chicken, pork, steak, we eat scrambled eggs 4-5 days a week and I eat nuts or Greek Yogurt as a snack. I’m making  a list of things to add to the weekly grocery list that are high in protein.

  • Cottage Cheese
  • Hummus
  • Cashew Butter
  • Cheese
  • Canned tuna (I can add this to salads for lunch)

There HAS to be more that I can add to this list! Why am I drawing a blank?

QUESTION: What should I start eating for lunch in order to get more protein and fiber? How do you sneak protein and fiber into your meals and snacks?