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Don’t Even Know…

It’s Saturday afternoon as I write this. Just poured a glass of white wine after doing a bunch of chores. Listening to Kate Bush. Logan is watching Wreck It Ralph. Bella is snoring on the couch. Michael ran to the store. First the bad news.

Michael got laid off Friday morning. I guess in a way we should have seen it coming since he was a contractor and lots of people are being laid off, and lots of companies are freaking out right now. But it was still awful. We are crossing our fingers it’s temporary and he’ll be back with his same company/team when this is all over with. His team was unaware of the plan to lay him off. It sounded like an HR decision. It’s still devastating and upsetting and stressful.

Logan’s birthday party was supposed to be Saturday but we cancelled that, obviously, so we decided to go for a little drive Saturday and then hike and have a picnic as a distraction for everything and it helped.

We had breakfast and did a few things then packed the car and drove out toward the beach to LL Stub Stewart Park. It’s a great place, that we’ve gone a bunch of times for hikes and day trips.

I picked it because it was about an hour drive from our house. It got us out of our house, out of the neighborhood, and I figured that with the social distancing it would be an ok place to go to. The park is huge. And I assumed most people would go to local Portland places (like Forest Park) or out in the Gorge to go hiking. (I was sort of right.)

There was still a fair amount of people at Stub Stewart but everyone was doing a good job of distancing themselves from each other. Families stayed together and away from other people. We went for a hike in the forest and didn’t see any other hikers (but did see a few mountain bikers out there–like two pairs).We were there early enough to miss the crowd apparently. I was honestly surprised at how many people were there after we left…

It was so empty we even took Bella off leash! (And you know how I feel about off leash dogs!) She did great. We were out in the woods alone.

It was a little on the chilly side, since it was kind of towards the beach. But we warmed up with our hike. The park was free. The bathrooms were open and had soap and toilet paper and smelled like bleach, so they were cleaning. That was nice. I still used Clorox wipes after using the bathrooms.

It was really good to get out of house after working from home for 5 days, not going to the gym, not going swimming, not seeing friends or family, cancelling Logan’s birthday party, and Michael’s bad news. We all needed a reset. Fresh air, hiking, getting a change of scenery was good for our mental health!

Then we had a picnic lunch on a table in the parking lot. The picnic tables were all spaced out really far from each other, so that was good. There were more people at the park by this time and I saw a lot of people on the other trail (not the one we did), so it was kind of defeating the social distancing thing with that many people. SIGH. This was when we packed up quick and left.

It was a pretty good day, despite everything. I was glad we got out, I was glad there were no people near us. I was glad we weren’t potentially spreading anything or catching anything. We just got a hike in, cleared our heads, and went home.

We came home, unpacked, I took a long hot bath and read a book and made huli huli chicken and roasted vegetables for dinner. It’s a super stressful time and it’s hard not to resort to old patterns dealing with stress. But trying.

QUESTION: HOW ARE YOU!?!?

Me Time

I haven’t really been taking very good care of myself lately. Mostly because of the 2 months (no exaggeration) that we were all sick. Whenever I felt better, Logan or Michael would get sick and I’d take care of them, then I’d get sick…it was a vicious cycle that didn’t seem to end. Mix in there lack of sleep and I just haven’t been feeling great lately.

I’m trying to keep up with my workouts (when I’m not sick and trying to recover) because that’s one thing that I can still do for myself to stay healthy.

I had started counting down the days until I had an extra day off from work (weeks ago!) and it was literally a light at the end of the tunnel! I was almost giddy with excitement for a ME DAY.

My long weekend started Thursday night with happy hour with a friend. We met at Gold Dust Meridian, a bar I hadn’t been to in a long time but always liked–and their happy hour goes really late, which is nice!

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Their food is really good and I love that the happy hour goes late. You can get cheap, good food and it’s small portions. We started with the deviled eggs and I got the Fried Brussels Sprouts. They were probably the best sprouts I’ve ever had! I seriously could have eaten three more orders of it!

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Here are the Brussels Sprouts: Grana cheese, calabrian chiles, pine nuts, roasted garlic aioli. SO GOOD! Seriously. We both got the happy hour mac n’ cheese. It was a small serving, which was good, just the right amount. The mac was just ok–I prefer creamy. And we split an order of the bourbon BBQ meatballs (3 small meatballs).

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All of the food was really good and it was so nice to get out and be social after basically being locked up in the house sick for two months! And it was nice to talk to a friend about all the stuff that’s been going on in our country as of late. Just talking about things made me feel a little better.

So anyways, Friday finally came. Not only was it a “me day” but the night before Logan had slept in his crib in the nursery all night by himself with no crying AND he only woke up once in the night!

I decided that I would take Logan to daycare for part of the day so I could do some stuff for myself. And I didn’t feel an ounce of guilt! (Ok, maybe I felt a slight ounce of guilt.)

I dropped Logan off at daycare and my first stop was the salon. I was in desperate need of a haircut. It had been 7+ months since I had one (I usually go every 5-6 months) and my hair has been making me crazy and making me feel frumpy because it’s such a frizzy mess I just put it in a ponytail.

Before:

After:

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She cut off about 5 inches and cleaned up the layers. I am so glad I did it!

Next up: the gym. I did some body weight exercises, free weights and weight machines. Then I did 2.75 miles on the elliptical and called it good.

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After the gym I went home and took an extra long shower and ate lunch.

I was starting to feel the itch to pick up the baby from daycare. I missed him. But I had one more stop I wanted to make before getting him: pedicure! Unfortunately I couldn’t find anyone to go with me so I went by myself with my book and it was kind of glorious to just chill out and relax in the massaging chair while I was being pampered.

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I picked up the munchkin from daycare and we spent the afternoon together cuddling and eating and playing. πŸ™‚ It was a good day and I’m glad I took some time for myself.