Dec 022014
 

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When I got back from Hawaii I weighed myself. If you saw my recent post, Weight Loss is Humbling, I admitted that the original weigh in hadn’t been accurate and I was heavier than I thought. I admit, it depressed me. I cried a little bit at the shock; I was angry at myself for letting it get that bad; I was kicking myself for not weighing myself EVERY WEEK since getting back. Had I done that, I would have caught the inaccuracy quicker and probably could have righted the ship sooner, too.

After the shock on the scale I started doing a few things:

I measured my food. Even salad dressing. For years I eye-balled a lot of stuff and it worked for a long time. But clearly I need to measure right now.

I ate fruits and veggies for snacks. I was already eating fruit as a morning snack during the week. But instead of some of the other not-so-healthy snacks I had been eating, I switched to eating raw vegetables and hummus (the hummus was portioned control packets from Costco).

I ate lean proteins, vegetables and salads for dinner. I told Michael that I wasn’t going to be eating pizza or “unhealthy” things for awhile. While we only ate pizza once a week (usually Friday nights) and it was Papa Murphy’s deLite pizza (low in calories), I didn’t want to eat a food that used to be a trigger for me. Besides, there are better choices I can make while I’m losing this weight.

I limited alcohol. Being on vacation I got a bit lazy with my liquid calories. Now I’m limiting it to Friday and Saturday nights only, and 1 glass of red wine. It’s not a huge deal to limit that for me but where I struggle is social events. We went to a Halloween party and it was difficult to not drink, for example. I wanted to have fun like everyone else!

I’m trying to limit candy. My downfall, always. Candy is where I struggle. Chocolate. Candy. Halloween candy. Baked goods at work. Sucks! But I’m doing my best to limit what I take in.

No Nog! At least until December 1st. I love eggnog. I know it’s an either love it or hate it kind of thing but I love it and usually buy it when it first arrives in the grocery store–somewhere around mid-November. This year I am waiting until December. I usually buy the light version but still, that’s a lot of calories. Waiting is a good thing. It will still be there…. :)

I’m also weighing myself once a week, even though the natural fluctuations on the scale stress me out. After seeing the shocking number on the scale, I weighed myself four days later and saw a small loss, so that was encouraging.

More Progress

Week One – Lost .08 pounds

Week Two – Didn’t weigh myself (PMSing!)

Week Three – Lost 1.8 pounds

Week Four – Sick! Weight stayed the same though

Week Five – Up 1 pound

Week Six – Thanksgiving…whomp whomp

PSA: Do not weigh yourself the day after Thanksgiving. For several reasons…first, it will just be discouraging. That can lead to feeling like giving up. Second, it might not be an accurate weight. Give it a few days, THEN step on that scale.

I’ve also been going to the Warrior Room consistently since being back from Hawaii. Getting back has helped me a LOT with my Runner’s Knee issues. The hard part is that I tend to gain weight at the Warrior Room. People tell me not to worry about that because it’s muscle, it’s my body composition changing, the number on the scale doesn’t mean I’m fat…blah blah blah. I’m still concerned about the number on the scale and dismissing it as “it’s muscle!” doesn’t really make me feel any better. So sure, while my body has become more muscular and I’m seeing some definition in areas I’m still focused on getting that number back under 150 pounds and I’d like to see my muffin top disappear.

One thing I noticed was that I think part of my problem coming back from vacation was I didn’t make the mental shift to “losing.” I’d been in maintenance mode for so long and could really eat whatever I wanted (in moderation) and not see a blip on the scale, that when I started to try and lose weight I wasn’t creating a deficit with my calories. That’s required for LOSING weight and I was comfortable back in maintenance mode where I ate all of my calories. Nope, nope, nope. That’s not how it works. A major DUH moment but yeah, you have to make that mental shift to LOSING.

This process is going much slower this time around. Stay tuned. I hope the next update is a little more positive!

 

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Nov 102014
 

I had a pretty good weekend. To be honest, the last few weekends have been a struggle for me. The weather was ugly, the darkness was making me tired and I was feeling very distressed about my weight. I was starting to get into the “must restrict” mentality and when I ate something I deemed to be “not healthy” I felt like a failure and would beat myself up about it. All weekend long. One slip-up, even if I hadn’t gone over my calories, felt like I failed. It sucked. It was kind of a dark place to be. I felt resentful of (seemingly) everyone else on the planet that could eat and drink whatever they wanted and not worry about their weight. I felt like I wasn’t making any progress. I actually broke down and bought some clothes in one size up because I was tired of crying every time I put on my pants and they felt skintight.

So that’s where I was the last few weeks. This weekend I didn’t feel like that too much. I was on track with my food. I was feeling more positive. I wasn’t feeling STARVING all the time like I had been for the last month and a half. And I had some good workouts. This was the Warrior Room on Saturday (and I went up in weight in the kettle bells!):

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It was a great workout and I am reminded just how important the Warrior Room routine is to my knee health. I noticed that when I took time off when I was sick, then the wedding, then the honeymoon, my knees started to bother me. But when I go to the WR consistently my knees are happier. It really does show how unbalanced my body is naturally. I need to work extra hard to keep those glutes strong to keep my knees strong!

This was Sunday’s workout — despite feeling a little stiff and sore I was able to get in a 2 mile run on the treadmill before yoga class:

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The yoga teacher seemed to psychically know that I needed extra hip stretching because most of the moves in that particular class worked on the hips (thank goddess!).

I also ate really healthy foods. I wanted to share one of the finds because it was so delicious. Years and years ago I was a vegetarian but I wasn’t very good at it and didn’t eat in a healthy way, I just didn’t eat meat. There also weren’t a lot of options for vegetarians 15 years ago. The faux foods weren’t good and I think the only option was Morning Star, which I’ve never liked.

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I got these veggie burgers at Trader Joe’s on a whim and I’m so glad I did! They were amazing! I loved them. For dinner on Sunday night I cooked up one of these veggie burgers and had some sauteed Brussels Sprouts with onions (cooked in coconut oil) with some cottage cheese on the side. It was a really filling dinner and it was only around 400 calories. I loved these burgers!

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If you have a Trader Joe’s near you, I highly recommend you give them a try. I will be buying more of them and working them into my meal rotation. The only downside is that you have to cook them in a skillet. I don’t know if they’d turn out in the microwave, so I don’t know that it would be a feasible option for lunches at work. But on the weekends it would be a great lunch option.

The weather was also really nice on Saturday. I got so much stuff done–a lot of the usual chores in addition to a bunch of yard work (and planted some plants from a neighbor). I also went through a bunch of stuff and got a box and big bag full to donate. Plus, Michael and I took Bella to the dog park.

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(That picture was actually taken by our dog walker in the backyard but it’s too cute not to share.) The dog park was packed with dogs because it was so nice out! Bella had a blast running around playing and chasing dogs and there were two rambunctious puppies (one pitbull and one mutt) that were super spazzy and Bella loved them. They all had the same crazy energy.

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Once Bella was done playing (she stopped paying attention to the other dogs) Michael and I walked with Bella around the park. It’s a huge park with trails and a few different fields, there was even a fenced horse area! Crazy that this huge park is so close to our house and we had no idea.

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It was just a really nice way to spend the afternoon–sunshine, blue skies, fall leaves and a nice walk.

Back to the food. I was under my calorie goal every day for the weekend AND I had some leftover Halloween candy too. It just goes to show that I just do not do well with restriction and moderation is what works. For weeks I tried to restrict and NOT eat any of the foods that I deemed on my “no list”. No pizza. No dessert. No “fun” foods. Just eat whole foods, fruits and vegetables. But denying myself these things just made me want them more and made me feel more miserable and frustrated with my lack of progress. It just goes to show you how much of weight loss is MENTAL.

I haven’t weighed myself to check in for two weeks. I will do it this week and see if I’ve made any more progress.

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