pregnancy weight gain

Accountable to Myself

 

Back on the horse again!

Exercise

I went back to yoga last week. It was the first time in a few months. If I remember correctly I stopped going around 29 weeks pregnant I think. I just couldn’t do it anymore, which disappointed me because I thought swimming and yoga would be the majority of my fitness throughout the third trimester. Unfortunately, I was to the point where I had to modify almost every pose, my balance wasn’t great, I felt like I couldn’t do most of the things in class and it was getting silly going and just laying in child’s pose. So, I stopped.

Going back to yoga after a few months off was HARD. I struggled with all of it. My balance wasn’t great. I felt out of breathe and weak. Downward dog was a pose I could barely hold for very long and I couldn’t do any of the poses where you lay on your chest (because of breastfeeding). Despite that, I was glad I went back and I intend on going at least once a week (twice a week would be ideal) to try and get my strength and balance back!

On days that I can’t go to the gym I walk (weather permitting). Recently a friend came over with her daughter (and a bottle of wine) and we walked to a nearby park since it was such a nice day. Her daughter played, Bella supervised everything, then we walked back to the house and lounged on the deck with our glasses of wine. It was a nice break to the monotony of my day (pumping, feeding, changing diapers, rinse repeat<–not complaining, just saying most days are the same right now!).

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When it’s just me at home, I often take Bella and Logan for a long walk in the neighborhood (sometimes twice a day) just to get out of the house and move around. I remember now how much I like walking! It’s peaceful and a nice way to get in some exercise.

I’m able to go a little longer and harder on the elliptical in just one week already. I feel great when I get to go and I feel accomplished and happy when I’m done. The one downside? Upper back pain. I don’t know if it’s a combination of taking time off and needing a new sports bra or if feeding Logan is putting a strain on my upper back but it aches!

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That session was 4 miles on the elliptical in about 50 minutes.

The next day I was going to try and do the stairmaster but decided to do the elliptical again instead. I was feeling a bit sore after a massage and wanted to take it easy. I did 4.20 miles on the elliptical this time and it felt really good (and a bit easy).

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Sunday I went back to yoga. I felt a little “meh” and didn’t want to go but I’m glad I did. I was a little early to class so I did the stairmaster for a few minutes before then went to class.

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This time yoga was much better than the first time back. I was able to do downward dog with more ease and while my balance was still not great, it felt good to stretch and move. Little by little things are getting easier.

How we are making it work right now: my gym days are now Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Michael works from home on Fridays now so that makes it easier for me to go to the gym (and hopefully soon I will be back to swimming). One day during the work week I try and go to yoga after Michael gets home from work. I expect this to change some once I go back to work. I’m hoping I can bike to work once a week so that I get my workout in and out of the way.

Food

Like I said in my last post I am back to counting calories. Most days I do “ok”. I put that in quotes because I wouldn’t say I am quite to where I’d like to be with counting my calories but I am trying to do my best and BE ACCOUNTABLE. Tracking everything is the first step. Do I go over my calories? Yes, sometimes. I’d say about 2 days a week I go over my calories for the day but the other days I do alright staying within my range. It just depends on my hunger level each day (which apparently changes often!).

According to what I’ve read, breastfeeding burns somewhere between 300-500 calories a day. It depends on how much you are making, but it sounds like the average is you burn 20 calories an ounce. I’m currently pumping while Logan and I learn how to breastfeed after getting his tongue tie fixed so I know exactly how many ounces I make a day. My average is 20-30 ounces a day. That means I would be right up there with burning around 500 calories a day.

Challenge #2: Raging Appetite

If you are pumping 25 ounces a milk a day, you are burning the same amount of extra calories as if you were running 5 miles every single day. You are going to be hungry! (source

Yes, yes and yes! So much hungrier than I ever was when I was pregnant. There are days where I feel like I could eat everything in my fridge and still be hungry. It’s cra–aaazy.

Breakfast is pretty easy to make healthy. Either it’s a scramble (eggs, sausage and sweet potatoes) or oatmeal:

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Lunch is usually pretty healthy, too. Where I fall short is afternoon snacking, eating a little too much for dinner (things like pizza) or indulging on sweets late in the evening.

This weekend I met up with a friend for lunch and made a healthy choice. We went to Laughing Planet because I like that they have healthy options for not a ton of calories. I got the Vindaloo Bowl, which was chard, lentils, rice, pulled pork and an Indian sauce with sauteed veggies and pickled onions. It was really tasty!

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Dinner the other night was healthy, so go me! Salad with avocado, black olives, jalapenos, cojita cheese and chicken fajita on top. It was delicious and even indulging in tortilla chips it was under 700 calories.

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Accountable to Myself

I’m down to drinking a Diet Dr. Pepper a few times a week instead of every day, so that’s progress.

I’m counting my calories every day, even on days when I go over.

I’m choosing fruits for snacks again, but still occasionally eating “quickie” snacks like protein bars, which isn’t great.

 

My Goals Going Forward

  1. Continue counting my calories every single day. (It was a little too easy to stop doing it!)
  2. Move my body every day, even if it’s a gentle movement and just walking.
  3. Give it time. I am okay with keeping my gym days to 3 days a week for a bit. There’s no rush to get back to my 5 day schedule like I had before. My body needs the time it needs to heal and rest and I’ll get back to where I was at some point.
  4. I plan on going back to the Warrior Room soon. I’m thinking somewhere around June-ish. I’d like to get back into a weight lifting routine at the gym and build that back up before going back to the Warrior Room and destroying my body!

So that’s the update from my world lately. How is losing weight going for you?

 

 

Body Changes During Pregnancy

I’ve wanted kids for as long as I could remember and was really excited when we got that positive test! But to be honest, I never really thought about the being pregnant part. Ever. In my fantasies it was always the “after”–the baby, being a mom, being a family. I don’t know why I never really thought what being pregnant would be like. Maybe because I really didn’t have anything to relate it to? I don’t know. But in my mind those 9 months never really popped up in my brain! LOL

When I got pregnant and wasn’t really enjoying the first trimester, it was a bit of a rude awakening. Once the second trimester started and I was feeling better, everything got better — including my mood. This was also the time my body started to change a bit. Instead of it looking like I just ate a big lunch or was gaining a few pounds in muffin-top poundage, I was starting to look pregnant.

I began to wonder how I would adjust mentally to all the changes my body was going to go through. Because again, I hadn’t really thought about it much. I’d worked so hard to lose 110 pounds and had worked just as hard to keep it off for 7 years! How was I going to change my thinking that gaining weight was OK?

First, making the mental adjustment to stop being in “loser” or “maintenance” modes was a weird switch. It was even weirder in the 2nd trimester when I had to INCREASE my caloric intake! Suddenly I was supposed to be eating more food. It took awhile to make that mental shift.

While I’m eating more food and not beating myself up if I go over my calories once in awhile, I’m not going crazy either. I’m eating more, listening to my body (and when I’m extra hungry I eat a little bit more) but I’m not bingeing on stuff because I’m “eating for two.” This was a huge positive thing for me. I had some reservations that old binge-eating habits would return because I have this “free pass” all of a sudden, but nope, not really. I honestly don’t feel that different and I’m not eating that differently.

Second, I had to get used to my body being the center of attention. For years as I lost weight and after I had reached goal, my body was the focal point in a lot of conversations. People would make comments about how great I looked, how awesome it was that I was losing weight, that I did a great job reaching my goal! It was all positive reinforcement and it helped keep me motivated in times when the weight loss stopped happening. But it was weird to go from being the fat chick that hid behind big clothes and layers to suddenly being skinny and having people NOTICE. I never really got used to the body comments.

Being pregnant I’ve noticed that I’m no longer an individual person–I’m now a baby vessel and people make comments. Half the time they are wildly inappropriate and sometimes downright rude (Maybe someday I’ll share some of the truly awful comments I’ve gotten but…right now I’m trying to stay positive!)…but for the most part people are just noticing “the bump” and making comments. Again, my body is on display and the focus. Weird.

For the first half of my pregnancy I didn’t feel too different. Around 20 weeks I started to notice some things.

The Bump

Clothes stopped fitting properly. I was making the switch to maternity clothes and shirts that were a size larger. I was also noticing the bump getting in the way of things. I could still bend over to pick something up but it was getting awkward. Certain machines at the gym I couldn’t do anymore because my bump was getting in the way (like the seated leg press). It was getting uncomfortable to toss and turn in bed–I had to do it gingerly to avoid pain and discomfort.

I was trying to remember back to when I was 250 pounds–I carried most of my weight in my stomach area. Yet I never had these issues when I was obese. It’s so odd that gaining 10 pounds of baby weight and suddenly I’m floundering around like a turtle on my back!

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Just learning to maneuver around with this new appendage was an adjustment. I can’t imagine what it will be like when I’m 35 weeks!!!

Even though I was buying clothes in a larger size–which used to send me spiraling into a mild depression–I wasn’t too upset about it because I kept reminding myself that THIS IS TEMPORARY. I am not buying a whole new wardrobe in giant clothes. I’m just buying a few maternity items to get me through the next few months.

I kind of love The Bump, though. This was a spot on my body that I loathed after losing weight because of the loose skin that never really went away no matter how much I lost or how much I worked out. It made me self-conscious. But now? I’m not bothered by my stomach at all! Besides, it’s the home for the little guy for a few more months. And it’s kinda nice knowing he’s there with me all the time. 🙂

Getting Bigger in General

I felt a little sad when around 15 weeks I had to go buy a new bra in a larger size. Larger size and larger cup size. It was a moment of sadness because I remember just how happy I had been when I was losing weight and buying clothes in smaller sizes.

My legs (ankles especially) are getting a little bigger. I’m sure it’s normal swelling (from what I’ve read) but it’s still weird to see swollen body parts where they used to be skinny.

Getting Winded Easily

I am a very fit person, cardio has never been an issue for me. I was in great cardio shape (thank you swimming!) and then BOOM. 20 weeks, I was suddenly huffing and puffing walking up stairs. I was so winded, could barely catch my breath, and it felt like overnight I was suddenly back to my old body! THIS WAS HARD.

I was noticing in the gym that things were getting harder, that I was out of breath, that my heart rate got high really quickly….BUT I FEEL THE SAME! Why isn’t this the same?!?! I used to be able to run 3 miles on the treadmill without feeling like I was dying. What happened??? I used to swim 2000 yards in the pool in 45 minutes without stopping to rest and now…I am so much slower now at everything.

It was so hard to make that mental shift that I can’t do the same things I did before at the same intensity. I am still struggling with this. I struggle with this every time I go to the gym and realize, Oh yeah, I need to back off a little bit.

My body sure is reminding me of this. When I get winded, when my heart rate is too high and I need to rest, and then especially the next day when I am really, really sore. I am reminded that my body is different.

After

I know that after the baby is here my body is going to be even different. I haven’t really thought much about it yet. I probably won’t think about it! Not until the time is here. I know I’ll get back to something resembling normalcy, but it will be another mental adjustment when it looks different then pre-pregnancy.

Being pregnant is definitely an adjustment. What I find obnoxious is that none of the books really talk about how you will FEEL. Every woman and every pregnancy is different, so there really isn’t a universal “this will definitely happen to you” thing…The books don’t really talk about what the changes will be like. Sure, they say “you’re going to gain weight” but the books don’t really talk about how it feels, what it looks like; they especially don’t discuss what it’s like to gain weight during pregnancy after you’ve lost a significant amount of weight in the past…you’re just kind of adrift at sea figuring these things out on your own, navigating your own feelings alone. None of my friends with kids could really relate or share how it feels because their story wasn’t like mine.

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It’s odd to FEEL the same but every week your body is changing in new and weird, fun and sometimes alarming, ways. You just never know what is going to happen next.

You know what distracts me from thinking too much about my body changing? When the little guy started moving and I felt the flutters and tickles. Then getting the ultrasound and seeing a formed human instead of a blob of fuzzy gray. 🙂 He was waving and swimming and flipping around and it felt real.

If you’ve gone through this stuff, I’d love to hear about it!