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Positive Thinking, Positive Change

I wanted to give an update about a post I wrote about medications and weight over the summer. Read that post for the background but the cliff notes version: I gained 10 pounds on a medication this summer.

I had a choice to make, try a different medication, or just keep going with prozac, which was working very well for my anxiety. I decided to give the buspar a chance per my doctor. I stopped the prozac and switched to the other one. Right off the bat, I was not a fan. It did absolutely nothing for my anxiety. I gave it over a month, waiting with white knuckles for it to finally kick in and start working…and nothing.

I was even having occasional panic attacks, which was not traditionally a component of my anxiety. So that was fun! I talked to my doctor and he increased the dosage. Within a few days of that, I started having really awful side effects. The biggest one was heart palpitations. Like constantly. It took me a few days to realize that the never ending heart palpitations might be because of the meds. I googled it and sure enough, “if you have this side effect, call your doctor immediately”. YAY! ūüôĀ

So I stopped the buspar immediately and within a day or so the side effects were better and mostly gone. That’s the good news. The bad news? I was still in the same boat as I was before.

I went back on a low dose of the prozac and I am trying to manage my anxiety with mindfulness and a relaxation app I downloaded. The one I usually use is Breathe2Relax.¬†I also use the Oak app. I like them and they work pretty well when I’m in the middle of an anxiety attack.

As for the weight I gained this summer…I am making good choices to lose it.

  1. No candy/dessert (which has been very hard with all the Halloween candy that’s EVERYWHERE!) but I am doing well with that so far.
  2. No alcohol Monday-Thursday and on Friday/Saturday nights I can have 1 drink (instead of my usual 2).
  3. Reminding myself it’s ok to be hungry sometimes.
  4. Taking the stairs at work. I go up and down between several floors multiple times a day and I’ve started using the stairs instead. It’s the little things that add up.
  5. I’m still working out my normal 5 days a week with 2 rest days.
  6. I’m counting my calories still but I am trying to actually create a deficit instead of eating back all of the calories in the gym.
  7. Weighing myself once a week. When I was in maintenance mode I was weighing once a month, or even less. If my clothes got tight, then I’d weigh myself, but I basically stuck at the same place.

The first week I lost almost 2 pounds. The second week I lost another pound. Over that weekend I wasn’t feeling 100% so I skipped drinking for the most part. I also didn’t have much of an appetite, so I think that helped jump start things.

As far as the mental aspect, I am doing well. My anxiety is “ok” and I’m feeling super focused on losing the weight. I am finding it easier to resist treats and things that are my downfall, so I think my mind is IN THE GAME on this.

Then Thanksgiving weekend hit–pie, wine, carbs…you know the drill. I didn’t weigh myself for 2 weeks and finally got back on the scale. This weekend I weighed myself after taking a few weeks off from the scale and was happy to see a few more pounds gone! I am now down a total of 7 pounds since October! WOOHOO!

I will keep you posted on my progress.

Back from Vacation

…And back on the plan!

Honestly I didn’t do too bad on my vacation in Arizona. We were doing a LOT of walking the entire time and I still worked out. I used the hotel gym twice, I swam once and we went for a hike. Most days we didn’t eat three meals. Which is typical when I’m on vacation. I usually just eat breakfast and dinner, or brunch and a snack.

I tried to make good choices when we did eat out, choosing vegetables and salads whenever possible. I knew that the portions would be much bigger than what I was used to. I also knew that a lot of my calories would be coming from booze. I tried to limit that as well to 3 glasses of whatever it was for the day.

When I got back I weighed myself. I was up about 1.5 pounds. Which was disappointing for sure, but I’m not beating myself up because I knew that I might gain some back on vacation. Anyways, I’m back at it and hopefully will make some progress soon.

Day One

Breakfast: 2 fried eggs, piece of toast with jalapeno jam and coffee with creamer. Calories: 345

Snack: Sliced pear. Calories: 57

Lunch: Applesauce, 1 ham and cheese wrap and 1 turkey and cheese wrap with a little mayo and mustard, spinach and kale and Craisins. No bread (just wrapped everything up in the meat). Two mini Tootsie rolls. Calories: 255

Snack: Guacamole and celery for pre-gym snack. Calories: 109

Dinner: Brussels Sprouts, baked lemon and dill salmon, some tortilla chips (I was craving SALT!). Calories: 584

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Dessert: 2 small pieces of chocolate. Calories: 180

Fitness: Back at the gym. Weight lifting, PT exercises, ran on the treadmill, also did a lot of walking on my breaks at work.

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It felt REALLY good to get back into the routine right after vacation. It also felt good to eat fruits and veggies!

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Day Two

Breakfast: 2 fried eggs, piece of toast with jalapeno jam and coffee with creamer. Calories: 345

Snack: Applesauce. Calories: 50

Lunch: Lentil and Roasted Red Pepper soup. There was a potluck at work for two retirements so I munched on some fruit and crackers and tried not to partake in the cake and other junk (that look REALLY tasty). Calories: Around 279

Snack: I ended up having a little bite of some potluck treats. Calories: about 100

Dinner: I baked some tilapia and topped it with mango peach salsa, steamed some green beans and had rice. Dinner was delicious! Calories: 448

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Dessert: Strawberries and some chocolate. Calories: 142

Despite eating some potluck munchies, I did really well. It was a rest day so only walking for me.

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Day Three

Breakfast: 2 fried eggs with hot sauce, English muffin toasted with cinnamon and Splenda, unsweetened iced tea and coffee with creamer. Calories: 338

Snack: Baby carrots and a Laughing Cow Swiss cheese wedge. Calories: 52

Lunch: Sliced apple wrapped in cheese and ham and turkey.  I also had some cashews. Calories: 294

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Snack: Plain Greek yogurt with sliced strawberries and a tootsie roll. Calories: 164

Dinner: Michael made burgers. I had mine on a toasted sandwich thin with the light Sargento cheese slice, a little bit of mayo, mustard, lettuce and pickles. I also had some Trader Joe’s tots. Plus 2 glasses of wine. Calories: 892

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Dessert: Strawberries and a piece of chocolate. Calories: 118

Fitness: Swim! Swam 2000 yards in 45 minutes. Burned around 300. Also did some walking during my lunch break and we walked Bella after dinner.

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I’d call this day a fail. I could have skipped the tots and saved myself 200 calories. But I wanted them. I could have stuck with 1 glass of wine but I wanted the second. I struggled. Sure I didn’t go too crazy over my calories but…I still did. ūüôĀ

Day Four

Breakfast: I sauteed some chopped broccoli in veggie broth, let the broth evaporate and then scrambled 2 eggs into them with green onion. Then I topped it with hot sauce and had cottage cheese with it. It was really delicious! Coffee with creamer and EmergenC drink. Calories: 348

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Lunch: Ham and cheese sandwich on a sandwich thin. Goldfish crackers. Calories: 418

Snack: Luna protein bar. Calories: 90

Dinner: Papa Murphy’s DeLite pizza with a salad and wine. Calories: 910

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Dessert: Strawberries and chocolate. Calories: 118

Fitness: Went for a hike and burned 867 calories!

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Day Five

Breakfast: Scrambled eggs with spicy pork sausage in a small corn tortilla with cottage cheese and hot sauce. Unsweetened iced tea and coffee with creamer. Calories: 392

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Lunch: Roasted red pepper and lentil vegetable soup with some goldfish crackers. Calories: 337

Dinner: We had a garden party and two couples came over. They each brought a salad (a homemade Caesar salad with a sliced egg on top and a yummy kale salad). I did baked beans and Michael grilled up chicken drumsticks with BBQ sauce. There was some cider shared, some wine drunk…yeah I overdid it. Calories: 1146

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Dessert: A friend brought over angel food cake (I sliced a small piece) and strawberries and it was a much healthier and lower calorie option for dessert. It was perfect! Calories: 172

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Fitness: Went to the gym. Warmed up on the spin bike, then did weights followed by the elliptical. Also did some gardening and took Bella for a walk. It was a very active day and my body felt tired and sore from the busy weekend and the hike on Saturday!

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I went over my calories. Dinner was pretty healthy but it was the portions and the liquid calories that got me!

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Day Six

Breakfast: Toasted English muffin with cinnamon and splenda, Chocolate whey protein shake, coffee with creamer. Calories: 298

Snack: Unsweetened applesauce. Calories: 50

Lunch: Leftover rice, kale salad and some chips.  Calories: 281

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Snack: I didn’t eat enough protein this day I think. I was kind of hungry most of the day. For a snack I had some Buddha Skinny Tea. Calories: 0

Dinner: Leftover chicken drumstricks, steamed green beans, cottage cheese and some crackers (not shown) while dinner was cooking. Calories: 418

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Dessert: Strawberries and some chocolate. Calories: 212

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Day Seven

Breakfast: 2 fried eggs, English muffin with cinnamon and splenda, unsweetened iced tea, coffee with creamer. Calories: 338

Snack: Applesauce. Calories: 50

Lunch: Miso soup with green onions and steamed Chicken Shu Mai dumplings. Calories: 205

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Snack: Guacamole and baby carrots. Calories: 109

Dinner: Steamed broccoli with a little Goddess dressing, a bratwurst with mustard and sauerkraut, quinoa. Calories: 693

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Dessert: Strawberries and some chocolate. Calories: 140

Fitness: Weight lifting, PT exercises and the elliptical at the gym.

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Here are my stats for the day:

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It was a pretty good day all in all. I’m going to weigh myself next week and keep doing what I’m doing and hopefully I’ll see some of the vacation weight gone.