starting over

Accountable to Myself

 

Back on the horse again!

Exercise

I went back to yoga last week. It was the first time in a few months. If I remember correctly I stopped going around 29 weeks pregnant I think. I just couldn’t do it anymore, which disappointed me because I thought swimming and yoga would be the majority of my fitness throughout the third trimester. Unfortunately, I was to the point where I had to modify almost every pose, my balance wasn’t great, I felt like I couldn’t do most of the things in class and it was getting silly going and just laying in child’s pose. So, I stopped.

Going back to yoga after a few months off was HARD. I struggled with all of it. My balance wasn’t great. I felt out of breathe and weak. Downward dog was a pose I could barely hold for very long and I couldn’t do any of the poses where you lay on your chest (because of breastfeeding). Despite that, I was glad I went back and I intend on going at least once a week (twice a week would be ideal) to try and get my strength and balance back!

On days that I can’t go to the gym I walk (weather permitting). Recently a friend came over with her daughter (and a bottle of wine) and we walked to a nearby park since it was such a nice day. Her daughter played, Bella supervised everything, then we walked back to the house and lounged on the deck with our glasses of wine. It was a nice break to the monotony of my day (pumping, feeding, changing diapers, rinse repeat<–not complaining, just saying most days are the same right now!).

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When it’s just me at home, I often take Bella and Logan for a long walk in the neighborhood (sometimes twice a day) just to get out of the house and move around. I remember now how much I like walking! It’s peaceful and a nice way to get in some exercise.

I’m able to go a little longer and harder on the elliptical in just one week already. I feel great when I get to go and I feel accomplished and happy when I’m done. The one downside? Upper back pain. I don’t know if it’s a combination of taking time off and needing a new sports bra or if feeding Logan is putting a strain on my upper back but it aches!

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That session was 4 miles on the elliptical in about 50 minutes.

The next day I was going to try and do the stairmaster but decided to do the elliptical again instead. I was feeling a bit sore after a massage and wanted to take it easy. I did 4.20 miles on the elliptical this time and it felt really good (and a bit easy).

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Sunday I went back to yoga. I felt a little “meh” and didn’t want to go but I’m glad I did. I was a little early to class so I did the stairmaster for a few minutes before then went to class.

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This time yoga was much better than the first time back. I was able to do downward dog with more ease and while my balance was still not great, it felt good to stretch and move. Little by little things are getting easier.

How we are making it work right now: my gym days are now Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Michael works from home on Fridays now so that makes it easier for me to go to the gym (and hopefully soon I will be back to swimming). One day during the work week I try and go to yoga after Michael gets home from work. I expect this to change some once I go back to work. I’m hoping I can bike to work once a week so that I get my workout in and out of the way.

Food

Like I said in my last post I am back to counting calories. Most days I do “ok”. I put that in quotes because I wouldn’t say I am quite to where I’d like to be with counting my calories but I am trying to do my best and BE ACCOUNTABLE. Tracking everything is the first step. Do I go over my calories? Yes, sometimes. I’d say about 2 days a week I go over my calories for the day but the other days I do alright staying within my range. It just depends on my hunger level each day (which apparently changes often!).

According to what I’ve read, breastfeeding burns somewhere between 300-500 calories a day. It depends on how much you are making, but it sounds like the average is you burn 20 calories an ounce. I’m currently pumping while Logan and I learn how to breastfeed after getting his tongue tie fixed so I know exactly how many ounces I make a day. MyΒ average is 20-30 ounces a day. That means I would be right up there with burning around 500 calories a day.

Challenge #2: Raging Appetite

If you are pumping 25 ounces a milk a day, you are burning the same amount of extra calories as if you were running 5 miles every single day. You are going to be hungry! (source)Β 

Yes, yes and yes! So much hungrier than I ever was when I was pregnant. There are days where I feel like I could eat everything in my fridge and still be hungry. It’s cra–aaazy.

Breakfast is pretty easy to make healthy. Either it’s a scramble (eggs, sausage and sweet potatoes) or oatmeal:

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Lunch is usually pretty healthy, too. Where I fall short is afternoon snacking, eating a little too much for dinner (things like pizza) or indulging on sweets late in the evening.

This weekend I met up with a friend for lunch and made a healthy choice. We went to Laughing Planet because I like that they have healthy options for not a ton of calories. I got the Vindaloo Bowl, which was chard, lentils, rice, pulled pork and an Indian sauce with sauteed veggies and pickled onions. It was really tasty!

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Dinner the other night was healthy, so go me! Salad with avocado, black olives, jalapenos, cojita cheese and chicken fajita on top. It was delicious and even indulging in tortilla chips it was under 700 calories.

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Accountable to Myself

I’m down to drinking a Diet Dr. Pepper a few times a week instead of every day, so that’s progress.

I’m counting my calories every day, even on days when I go over.

I’m choosing fruits for snacks again, but still occasionally eating “quickie” snacks like protein bars, which isn’t great.

 

My Goals Going Forward

  1. Continue counting my caloriesΒ every single day. (It was a little too easy to stop doing it!)
  2. Move my body every day, even if it’s a gentle movement and just walking.
  3. Give it time. I am okay with keeping my gym days to 3 days a week for a bit. There’s no rush to get back to my 5 day schedule like I had before. My body needs the time it needs to heal and rest and I’ll get back to where I was at some point.
  4. I plan on going back to the Warrior Room soon. I’m thinking somewhere around June-ish. I’d like to get back into a weight lifting routine at the gym and build that back up before going back to the Warrior Room and destroying my body!

So that’s the update from my world lately. How is losing weight going for you?

 

 

How I Spent My Weekend

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With bronchitis!

That’s how I spent my weekend. Not on the plan, at all, and as per usual, poor timing universe. I was feeling kind of rundown all week but it wasn’t until Thursday that I started to really feel sick. Friday I went to the doctor and yep, bronchitis. Sadly, there wasn’t much I could do about it. My doctor said that if I didn’t improve in a few days that it might be bacterial and he’d give me antibiotics. So time will tell.

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I basically spent the entire weekend on the couch or in bed. The one good thing about being sick is that the animals are excellent nursemaids. Both Bella and Fat Kitty snuggled and kept me company while I coughed up a lung.

The beasts also helped me watch TV. πŸ™‚ So I realize that I am like 14 years behind on the times but I started watching Gilmore Girls. It’s streaming on Netflix and with Chromecast I can watch it on the TV in the living room or the bedroom instead of the computer (it’s a cheap option and works well). So many people talk about this show–STILL–and I never watched it when it was on TV so I thought I’d give it a try. And I got hooked. It’s a good show. It’s sometimes silly but really charming.

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The writing is pretty good and funny, I love that Melissa McCarthy is in it (I had no idea she was on this show). I go back and forth loving the relationship between mother and daughter and being annoyed by the codependency but overall I love the show.

Dinner Saturday night was soup and a grilled cheese sandwich. I was craving comfort food and I’d been eating soup for several days. We had some white bread in the freezer from the last time Michael made his famous mac n’ cheese (we rarely have bread in the house and when we do it’s the gluten free stuff from Costco) so I made the sandwich with that and it was AMAZING. Grilled cheese on cheap white bread is the best.

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Saturday night I actually got some okay sleep and wasn’t coughing the entire time like Friday night. But that’s where the good news ended.

Sunday I started to feel worse instead of better–but not with bronchitis symptoms. I ended up spending most of Sunday in bed napping on and off because of vertigo. I have no idea where that came from but I had waves of nausea all day with brief moments of feeling like I was almost okay. It sucked! But at least I wasn’t coughing uncontrollablyΒ like I was on Friday. I called the advice nurse and she had no idea. “Eat saltines and drink water.” Um, great. We ruled out pregnancy and ebola. πŸ˜› But still, no diagnosis for Sunday’s misery. The only thing I could really eat was diet ginger ale, ginger candies and toasted bagels. I would not say it was a fun day. But hey, I got to season 2 of Gilmore Girls…..

I’m really hoping this over with soon because I am getting restless and sick of being in bed or on the couch. I’m also starting to get antsy because I wasΒ finally making progress on the scale and as of today I haven’t been to the gym since last Wednesday. I guess the only upside to that is that I’ve had zero appetite since then. But truthfully, I am irritated because I was getting into the swing of things; I was back to running consistently and getting a little bit faster AND I went up in weight on some of the kettlebells I was using at the Warrior Room. All that progress and now I have to go back to where I was before. Dammit!