Healing Your Body

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 “To be beautiful means to be yourself. You don’t need to be accepted by others. You need to accept yourself.” ~Thich Nhat Hanh

 

Recently I read an article that I posted to my Facebook group, and I wanted to write a little bit about it here, too. Here is that link: 5 Words to Heal Your Relationship with Your Body.

“I am enough.”

There’s a difference between striving to improve yourself, and beating yourself up for not being perfect. I fall into this trap sometimes. Sure I want to better myself, I want to lose weight, I want to be fitter and stronger and so on and so on…but at what point is it enough to just BE?

In the past 6 months I’ve been trying to lose some weight that I gained, was a little successful and had some setbacks, and numerous times I’ve had people ask me “what if this is just where your body is naturally?” I’ve pondered this and while I am not discounting that, I do think I can lose a little bit more. The hard part is trying to decide when to stop criticizing myself and when to accept that this is it.

Compassion.

I am definitely NOT compassionate to myself. Others, yes, myself, rarely. Over the years I’ve learned to back off with the gym if my body isn’t feel right. 7 years ago? I would have powered through whatever I was feeling and ignored the cues my body was giving me and beat myself up if I had to take a break. Maybe it’s age, maybe it’s having enough injuries over the years that I’ve gotten better at taking an unplanned day (or week) off if my body needs it. It’s hard having compassion for yourself.

The other component of being compassionate is to silence that negative voice in your head (we all have it). Some days that voice in my head is a lot louder than other days. Recently that negative voice was very loud when I was trying on my summer clothes from last year. Having to buy a bunch of new clothes was discouraging and I beat myself up about it for days. Was that helpful? No. But turning that voice off can be such a struggle sometimes.

Positive reinforcement word Compassion engrained in a rock
Positive reinforcement word Compassion engrained in a rock

Gratitude.

This was a hard lesson to learn but I’ve learned it. I think what really taught me this lesson was injury. I used to take my fitness level for granted. I’d forgotten how hard I’d worked to get there. It’s not like I went from 250+ to athlete overnight — IT TOOK TIME and EFFORT. And yet I still forgot how hard I worked to get there.

When I suffered from Runner’s Knee it changed my life and my outlook on things. It was very discouraging and depressing and it was the longest injury I’ve ever had. Two years. Two years of specialists, physical therapy, massage therapy, acupuncture, yoga, X-rays and MRIs. Nothing sucks more than not knowing from day to day, or even hour to hour, if your body was going to work right. What helped heal me was going to the Warrior Room. It got me back to running and I was never more grateful or happy in my life. I worked hard to get back to being able to run without pain and I do NOT take running for granted anymore. Even if I can only run 1 mile, it’s something and it’s better than nothing and I am glad for it.

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At some point, life needs to be about more than the number on the scale. It should be about living life, spending time with loved ones and enjoying things every day.

A friend was recently diagnosed with terminal cancer and the first thing I thought about with the news was that nothing else really matters in the big picture: just relationships and loving life. Not measuring your food religiously every day, or going to the gym to slog through a workout you aren’t feeling, or stressing about stupid shit…

Going on a road trip with a friend and sharing the memories; sharing an amazing dessert with your spouse on your anniversary; cuddling with your fur-babies on a lazy Sunday morning; sitting on the deck on a hot summer night listening to the frogs chirp and just relaxing. These are the things that matter, not being a size 6 in jeans. It’s a shame it often takes something serious or tragic to remind ourselves of what really matters.

This is work I need to do on myself. Love myself more. Be more kind to myself. Be more understanding. Accept where I currently am. It’s okay to want more and to want to be better, but not okay to belittle myself because I’m not there yet.

Hope everyone read the article and found something in it that spoke to them, too.

Reducing My Calories – Part 3

Here is Part 3 of the series. It’s for last week (the week before I went on vacation) so my hope is that I make some progress before I leave and that I don’t do too much damage while on vacation!

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Day One

Breakfast: Cereal with milk, toast, unsweetened iced tea and coffee with creamer. Calories: 359

Snack: Blueberries. Calories: 83

Lunch: Homemade tuna salad (with curry powder and lite craisins) with celery and baby carrots. Small piece of chocolate. Calories: 261

Snack: Whey chocolate protein shake. Calories: 100 

Dinner: Baked tilapia with Brussels Sprouts and quinoa. Calories: 430

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Dessert: 2 small Butterfinger minis and half a glass of milk. Calories: 151

Fitness: It was a rest day but I did a lot of walking!

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Day Two

Breakfast: 2 fried eggs, English muffin with cinnamon and splenda, unsweetened iced tea and coffee with creamer. Calories: 338

Snack: Green grapes. Calories: 92

Lunch: I made 2 ham wraps with Swiss cheese, a little mayo and mustard, kale and spinach and then guacamole with celery and carrots. I kind of loved this lunch! It was delicious and low calories and very filling. 1 piece of chocolate. Calories: 334

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Snack: Pre-swim snack of plain Greek yogurt with fresh blueberries: Calories: 111

Dinner: Quinoa, Brussels sprouts and Trader Joe’s Chicken Shu Mai with some sriracha. I was SO hungry after swimming and needed something fast. Calories: 480

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Dessert: Half a glass of milk and 2 mini Butterfinger bars. Calories: 158

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It was a really decent day.

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Breakfast: 2 fried eggs, piece of toast with some jelly (my homemade jalapeno jelly), unsweetened iced tea, coffee with creamer. Calories: 345

Snack: Green grapes. Calories: 92

Lunch: Homemade tuna salad with sliced cucumber and a Laughing Cow cheese wedge. This lunch was not quite filling enough for me. Calories: 261

Snack: Plain Greek yogurt with blueberries. Calories: 111

Dinner: I was really craving a grilled cheese sandwich so that’s what I had! I made a salad with kale and Swiss chard and spinach with a piece of bacon crumbled, cucumber, tomatoes and Caesar dressing. Calories: 509

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Dessert: Fun size Butterfinger and glass of milk. Calories: 240

Exercise: Did a walk during my lunch break and then went to the gym where I did some weight lifting and the elliptical. My back was really cranky at the gym so I quit early.

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It was an ok day. Could have done better.

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Breakfast: Rice Krispie cereal with milk, piece of toast with jalapeno jelly, unsweetened iced tea and coffee with creamer. Calories: 396

Snack: Green grapes. Calories: 92

Lunch: Back with my new favorite lunch! The ham and cheese roll up with spinach and guacamole and cucumber slices. Calories: 290

Dinner: Quinoa, bratwurst, steamed broccoli with Goddess dressing and sauteed onions. It was a kind of “throw everything together” kind of dinner. Calories: 570

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Exercise: Just walking, it was a rest day.

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I went over my calories for the day and I was disappointed but there was a small victory–I really wanted a glass of wine with dinner but I refrained. It was either have quinoa with dinner or the glass of wine but not both and I made the decision to eat instead. Aw well, I was still a little over for the day but it wasn’t too bad.

Day-5

Breakfast: Chocolate Whey protein shake on the way to the airport! I see a bagel or sandwich and coffee in my future.

 

I have some ideas for meals and snacks for when I get home from vacation. I think they will be helpful. Question for you readers: is this of interest to you guys? I don’t usually post food diary type posts and only intended on doing this for a few weeks but as I make progress I think I will continue what I’m doing. Do you guys want some more food diary type posts? Maybe not weekly but on a semi regular basis?