Sunday I slept in late (9:30ish) and honestly felt like just going back to sleep. I was sore from Saturday’s workout but really I was having nice dreams and wanted to just crawl under the covers and sleep some more. I got out of bed and enjoyed my breakfast–an English muffin with homemade blackberry jam (which was delicious) and then went to the pool. My swim was excellent and felt good on my sore muscles but it was bittersweet. Half-way through my swim I realized it was probably my last swim at the gym. 🙁
After my swim I went home and Michael and I settled in to watch the first Harry Potter movie. I’ve never seen the movies and didn’t read the books (except the first one) but decided to start from the beginning and watch them all. Michael made popcorn on the stove (from scratch, the only way we eat popcorn) and we watched the movie. It was a lazy day. Fat Kitty snuggled on my lap during the movie. My lunch was popcorn and I made myself a salad: fresh tomatoes and basil from the yard with mozzarella cheese, olive oil and balsamic vinegar. Then I had strawberries for a snack.
It was the laziest day I’ve had in a long time. It was kind of nice. No laundry, no errands, no cleaning (all done on Saturday). Michael had plans Sunday evening (fantasy football draft…save me!) so I was on my own. While we do spend time apart on weekends when we have separate plans with friends, it’s not often that we spend a meal apart on weekends.
I could have made good choices about food. I had lots of options in the house. I could have defrosted a salmon fillet and made that for myself. There were two pieces of leftover pizza that Michael said I could eat. I could have made a big salad or a sandwich. But around 5pm I started to crave Chipotle. No idea why. I rarely crave fast food anymore. In fact I haven’t eaten at Chipotle in years. For some reason it invaded my brain and I couldn’t get it out. I went online and did some research on what I could order that wouldn’t be an insane amount of calories.
I hemmed and hawed about whether or not to get Chipotle for dinner and finally decided to just do it. I ordered the Burrito bowl–with all the fixings I wanted (guacamole, rice, black beans, salsa, carnitas) and according to the website calculations it came to about 800 calories. Honestly that’s not bad for dinner.
I like that they put the calorie information on the menus and the ordering board. They have the calories in a “range” which is vague but better than nothing, right? I got home and I added my own light sour cream (probably saving myself over 100 calories). This is what 800 calories looks like:
I added some of our own tortilla chips for less calories than the Chipotle chips, too. First: the dinner was SUPER salty. Holy cow was it salty. Second: it was a lot of food. I probably should have eaten half and saved the rest for lunch. Oh well!
It’s funny. The “before” me had tons of time. My life was dedicated to spending weekends on the couch. I’d watch entire seasons of television shows in one weekend. I’d be glued to weekend marathons of Law and Order on TNT or Sex and the City reruns. And of course that meant food while I was on the couch too. What is my life like now? I have no time for weekend marathons of TV shows. Or I should say, I rarely have time.
Between yard work, house chores, my vigorous workout schedule, our training rides on the bike that can take entire days…who has time to sit around and mindlessly eat food? I’m so busy and preoccupied I rarely sit down and binge on food. Rarely. It happens once in awhile, but it’s not often. I do believe that part of my old eating habits were partly out of boredom. Sitting in front of the TV with no projects, nothing to do, it’s easy to just stuff my face.
It seems like a no-brainer but it was quite the “lightbulb” moment. Keeping myself occupied has prevented me from thinking about food in unhealthy ways. Of course, this lightbulb moment made me wonder: if I quit the gym, will I start binge eating? Will I gain weight because I’m not as busy? It was a scary thought. Logically I think the answer to that is no. While the weather is nice I always have the option to bike to work. I could do that 5 days a week in fact. That would be enough fitness to stay on track (and it would get my bike mileage up very nicely).
As you can see, I’m having some major anxiety about the gym. I don’t like being in limbo. I like stability and routine. I like knowing where I’m going to be at any given time.
QUESTION: How much does boredom factor in to your weight gain/loss? How do you prevent binges?